Physical pain from bad social situations. Anyone else?

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Sometimes when I'm in a terrible social situation that I can't get out of and I freeze up and I'm getting the worst kind of attentin, it physically hurts a lot which makes it so much harder to recover and no one understands how much they hurt me. Minor pain comes whenever I feel awkward at all and real gut wrenching pain is too common. The worst physical pain I've ever felt is not from physical injuries. It's like my insides are being crushed. It makes it impossible to deal with people who bother me. I wish I could level the playing field sometimes, but it's blinding:(

When I was your age, yes often. So bad in fact that by my mid twenties I'd given myself a hiatal hernia and a duodenal ulcer. (Translation -- both ends of my stomach tore a bit.)

In my mid twenties I made the somewhat crazy decision to enlist in the Navy. I washed out of boot camp after threatening suicide, but oddly had an experience afterward that I was never able to fully explain to anyone. I'd taken a job working technical support for Hewlett Packard and it was kind of a cushy corporate contract that had been over-staffed because it was new and it was also going into the holiday season, so there weren't a lot of calls anyway. We had a lot of time between calls and I just started writing. Philosophy actually and it turns out that much of what I wrote was very similar to Plato's allegory of the cave from the Republic (which I hadn't read yet). After about a week of writing, I was no longer having anxiety attacks, which I'd had for many years and was no longer physically ill from social anxiety. It was like the opposite of "post traumatic stress", but the psychological industry doesn't have a name for it. I called it an epiphany for lack of a better word.

I really wish that I could give that experience to other people. You sound like you could really use it. I tried for a while, but now I just don't think it's possible.

(Don't ask me how I got past the induction. Somehow I managed to convince them that I was healthy enough. Physically that was true, but I really didn't have the emotional faculty at the time to be there.)

This is so like what I feel sometimes...

i got bodily pains constantly, i guess its all related to stress levels within the body...

I don't have physical pain but sometimes I can get anxiety attacks that affect my whole body. My vision will start to fade, I'll get dizzy, my knees will shake... basically the feeling I'd imagine you get just before you pass out, though I have never actually reached the point of losing consciousness.

When this happens at home I have to lay down on the floor right where I am. In public I usually try to make it to a corner or a bench and sit and let it pass.

When very stressed, I get on this weird high where I can feel NO pain.....

To Kirska: I get that too and I start stimming like crazy
To Zghost: That is f****d up lol wow wtf