getting my mind off of this girl

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So, over the last semester I spent a lot of time with this one girl. Probably more time than I've spent with any girl in my entire life. The time I spent with her was most likely meaningless to her (it was only for studying for a class). I mean, we got along really well for the most part and shared a stupid amount of things ranging from interests to idiosyncrasies to humor in common. I did a bunch of ret*d things like deny giving her my phone # in order to facilitate meeting up to study (I think I said something to the extent of "how am I supposed to trust you with that?" jokingly), because it didn't make sense at the time since we had been setting up times to meet just fine via email. Eventually, I just ended up telling her I have asperger's (what the f**k, whyyy) in the context of a conversation about autism (we're both neuroscience majors). She kind of gave me a "wtf" face after I said that. I think telling her about my asperger's was the result of getting too comfortable with her and subconsciously attempting to kill any chances I might think I had with her.

Anyways, between the two of those stupid things and some others, I've probably blown it with this chick. She's kind of out of my league to begin with, probably. On top of that, she's spoken for.

It'd be really quite simple to forget about her if the semester were to start up again soon (there's tons of girls here, and now that I've finally gotten in touch with my balls, talking with them wouldn't be that hard) but alas, there's still another month until that happens. Even if I had some friends, it'd be easier to forget about her, but I don't. I live with my parents and haven't had been part of a social group since I was a music major (which I am no longer) at another college 4 years ago.

I think the root of these problems could be solved by getting a job (I've never had one in my life besides my research assistant job, so this could prove difficult, even though I'll have my BS in a few months) and moving the f**k out of my parents house, but who knows. I'm just so sick of being a loner, because it's something that I was very far from being 4 years ago.

Sorry for ranting so much about this nonsense.

Bite the bullet, tell her how you feel or just lean in. An action says a 1000 words as they say. Plus you'll only regret it and think what if after.

I did, two years later I'm still with her, she was with someone else at the time too.

You won't be a loner if you come on here more often. I didn't care about meeting a boyfriend in real life when I got on here. Now me and my boyfriend from here live together and have a son. So many people on here try too hard to get into NT society and fit in with them. Being an outcast and having out-crowd friends who are more like you was much more fulfilling for me.