Mildly alarmed because I don't feel bad about this.

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Is it wrong that I don't feel bad about a molestation that happened when I was a child?
It's there, in my past. Shouldn't it be this huge traumatizing thing I can never get past?
Especially since I watched the police report filed get buried under bureaucracy and an expensive lawyer?
Why doesn't it haunt my thoughts from day to day? Why does it only occasionally come to the front of my brain.
I should feel bad about it. I just view it as experience. I know I'm not gay because I've had male. I like females aesthetically.
But once the concept becomes a person my interest becomes... diverted.

Is this disconnection something to be worried about?

So many people get molested, and they do fine in life and are happy people. You're not alone. They're jsut normal people whom you could never guess got molested. So not being traumatized by it is perfectly normal.

No it's not wrong. You sound quite mentally healthy to me, you've made peace with your past and moved on. So many people seem incapable of that.
Why would it be better to be miserable and traumatized your whole life?

Does this imply that people necessarily do not understand something and hate it?
Isn't it possible to fear something that a person understands?

It is generally a stereotype that every person who as a child got molested would be traumatized. You can see the logic, to an extent, but I personally tend not to judge hastily.

Personally, as far as my logic works, I think that it depends on the person, naturally.

Presuming, you've got two situations, 1 of rape and one of consent. Then there's the whole too young to consent spectrum. It is up to you whether you agree with this part or not.
Sure, the rape situation would almost definitely turn out to haunt the child on whom the act was committed.
The consenting one, however, is a different matter. Honestly, at this point there's really not much of a difference between an adult and a child. An adult could be traumatized just as much. It really depends on the person.

So inferring from what you described as molestation, I presume you mean under today's understanding of a the word whence used in the context of a child, too young to consent. Correct?
Or is it that you were you actually raped, against your will, and were basically forced to act upon the wishes of the initiator?

Also, a person is an individual. I honestly cannot really say whether your case is normal because I do not know what exactly occurred. And it will remain as such until these questions will be answered:
1. At what age were all the party members involved?
2. Where and when the event took place.
3. What exactly happened from the beginning to the end.

Take two situations, one of rape and one of consent, and two persons below the age of 13.
P (person) A is raped and is traumatized for life (questionable, but this is just an example).
P B is raped but due to the character of the person the event while didn't traumatize the child, nonetheless had an impact. However, the effect could actually result in good changes, something that needs to be bore in mind. Everything on earth is relative, after all.
P A engages in consensual sexual intercourse with an adult (who the initiator is, matters not), the person later regrets it for some reason - the adult actually desired the child specifically for this reason and therefore only did what can be understood as manipulation and it was later found out.
P B engages in consensual sexual intercourse with an adult, a love bond is actually present, and the two eventually end up marrying each other and living a happy life. The child grows up to be an absolutely average person in terms of mental stability.

Anyway, this post seems to be too long. Pardon, sexology is one of my main subjects of interest so I tend to dwell quite deep into the subject.

I hope this helped in some way.

I was somewhere around seven, it was not willing.

Two older boys penetrated me orally and anally in the school bathroom.

See if it was consenting, I would understand my disconnection. But this was trauma level stuff, as I was mocked throughout. It should be affecting me, but it isn't. See, I opened up to some friends recently about it, and from their reactions, it's a far bigger thing than I made it out to be. My parents won't even talk about it.

That really sucks, but it seems like you're coping just fine.
This is one of those subjects that pretty much no one is comfortable discussing though, so if you feel the need to talk it out in person, a therapist would be good. Your friends probably won't be cool with it, and I have no idea what the hell your parent's problem is.

Unfortunately it seems to not be uncommon, I know several guys personally who were molested when they were younger.

It's likely that your parents are ashamed of themselves for allowing something like this to occur, hence their inability to cope with the said discussion.

Now I can confidently say that I understand your concern.
Perhaps it'll do you well to look around other forums dealing with matters of such nature and see them, see different points of view, perhaps you'll meet someone who is in the same boat as you and he might know the reason he isn't bothered by his past.
Search on google forums (the key search words should contain the word forum - if a forum is what you seek) on the topic of child abuse, or perhaps childhood trauma, something along those lines.

I used to know a girl that was raped frequently at home and she jokes about rape now... I dont think she thinks its a bad thing, just something that happens in life.

That's pretty much it, I don't really feel the need to discuss it, but from time to time, it pops into my brain.... "oh yeah, that happened, didn't it?".

I always figured I should have been more screwed up by it, but it's barely notable. I guess you could say I regret NOT being emotionally scarred.
If I was, I would have a cool scar to show off.

Why would that be good exactly? I fail to understand.

Yeah, I get what you mean. Kind of hard to show off though......

It would be a wonderful thing to have if someone tried to pull the "you don't know what I went through" card with me. If I actually felt bad about it that is. I could pull the same thing, effectively derailing their pity train.

I may be wrong, but I don't think it's worth it.

I was probably molested when I was nearly two and I didn't even know it.
I was a baby so I don't know what she was doing, I remember it from my baby perspective. That was my earliest memory.


It's better off to not care what happened or else it tear you up inside. Those who aren't over it; they have PSTD, they need counseling, they get all these flash backs and it effects them, they might think sex is gross because they were raped or molested when they were little. I think child molestation and rape can lead the child to be asexual because it wires their brain differently because it was so tragic or it can cause them to lack sexual desire so they don't have a high sex drive. Sex just wouldn't interest them.

A lot of people want to make you feel like a victim, and eventually you do feel like a victim. I wouldn't think much about it, since it's something in the past.

This is true, I haven't said this because I thought that it would be irrelevant here. But after the last post the OP made I think it actually quite appropriate and useful. Good thinking, Spokane.

Occasionally you may find a person who was traumatized by such an experience and it is very noticeable. And can cause inconvenience towards acquaintances.
I'm personally familiar with a few cases. Other than one, the rest don't trouble me personally, though I do wish there was somehow a way I could help.


That aside, though. OP, you can still use this 'card' even though it actually means little to you, the others will fall from a cliff (metaphor) whence hearing of your tragedy when compared to theirs.