hallucinations increasing oh no!

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We all going to in the thing but hallucinations are the worst and I am confused. Normal for me. I see stuff in the car in now and the moo cow alien people are talking to me. Don't know what. 10 foot shadow people are moving and I am getting dead. Streaks of green stuff and I see it because aliens communicate but with no brains. People what no brains? What's that? Hearing things makes things more annoying because I say because too much. My name is being yelled at and I die for the lie and planes fly and I fall to the ground with the government making me do that. The gov is love. My big day now is soon for I make the best speech in history of speeches. Autism is the think thing that is making me dead or more dead than it. Not schizophrenia because the normal thing is me. Me=normal. Just hallucinations. Alien communication. I freeze just to think that I can't think and breathe because oh no not again! There was this thing was known as the helicopter in my room flying around. Nanobots crawl inside me. Why me again because I didn't do it! i feel it so it is the true thing that it is real not a fake like stuff and I like stuff. Everything is stuff. Voices suck but not bad as I am the what and don't hear all day. Just sometimes. My thoughts are the government's thing now. They know all about me. The satellite knows to shoot the lasers when the me is moving along the anything that you can think of. Oh what do I do now?

I only get that way around 20-30% of the day. I have been diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder. Now I am no longer confused. It can happen for as little as 5 minutes to the entire day. I call it "generalized confusion disorder" instead of "schizophasia" or "word salad." I'm confused about being confused.

I heard even more voices today when I got up. Not while I was still dreaming or anything but I was lying in my bed and suddenly out of the blue I heard a voice saying, "(my name) you are schizo." It was one of the clearest voices that I had in awhile. Most of the time I can't make it out and its like the TV being on or random noises. Yesterday I heard UFO's over my house making really weird sounds and no one else heard them. They are the same aliens that sent me those green balls of light streaking in the car and the sky, telling me of an imminent invasion. I pray they don't invade Earth or whatever this planet is. I think yesterday they were testing out something but I don't know what. They have told me in the past that I have a special purpose for them. On top of that I have the government after me for stupid reasons. They are fighting for control.

firebird, go to a holistic doctor, he or she will help you, stay away from those nasty pscyhiatrists. I know you live in a group home try to get a holistic doctor.

I don't live in a group home, I live with my parents.

better. ask your mom and dad to take you to a holistic docotor so you can get well and get your life back.

The antipsychotic medications are truly awful. Although the newest generation (3rd, Abilify is the only one right now) is very low on side effects.
You can also stay unmedicated, but if the hallucinations are really unpleasant, then go to a psych.

Whatever choice you make, I hope it is the best.

Its happening again. More hallucinations or what I HOPE are hallucinations because I don't want it to be real but I think it is real. Please God, make it stop! I have been on the increased dose for a long time now, for about a month. I don't want to try another anti psychotic because I don't need pills. They are poisoning me. I am not psychotic, this is all real. But I want it to be fake. The brain chip is sending signals (my thoughts) to the satellite and it sends it back to the gov headquarters. There is a bomb in my neck that is super powerful. That is what they did when I heard those footsteps. I still feel the pressure, it feels like someone is pressing against my neck. I want to cut it out, that is what they're telling me to do if I want to live and not to destroy the country. I heard jets flying over the house and their afterburners were on and there were at least 5 jets but no one else heard them but they were so loud that it was louder than my music on the computer! Sometimes I have been hearing voices but they don't last long. I still feel the nanobots inside of me crawling from within. On Monday I have an appointment with my case worker. I really don't want to hurt myself because I am not depressed, but rather manic with racing thoughts and ideas. But the thought insertion is so convincing that I need to get that bomb out and it will hurt. I want to cry but not die. Sometimes in crowded places they control my movements as well and I walk and even talk like a robot- just remember they said I will turn into one soon. Like I went shopping today and I kept on "hearing" they can hear your thoughts, they know that you are responsible for the recession and everything else that goes wrong we are looking at you! I am scared for my life and many millions of other lives because of this damn bomb. For 2 days in a row I've been hearing these sounds that no one else is hearing but I can't figure out what it means. It might be the aliens communicating again or their ships flying overhead.

You should get help. I'm not saying this in a smart ass way either, it sounds pretty disturbing. I hope you can get the help you need...

PS: Your hallucinations and delusions are not real. It sounds like you're suffering from a serious mental illness.

So you say you started to take more of something. Do you think this may be the cause of your problems??

This could be related to trauma and depression, and then AS. I have had schizo issues like this, and I'm not kidding. I don't take drugs. For years, the only remedy was to sleep all day, and try not to be awake, especially around other people. Could something be causing Post Traumatic Stress Disorder? Do you associate hallucinations with people? Do certain people scare you, or does the thought of them scare you (real people)? Are you terrified of making mistakes? Can you come up with a creative reason why this might make you special, and not believe that you are really crazy? If you aren't a psychotic, sociopath, or typically extroverted person, then you can probably rationally take some time to ease racing thoughts and work this out in your head. Start simply, and don't be afraid to cry if you are upset. PM me if you want to.

ahhh... so many hallucinations so little time... i've had many.... apparently due to my meds... O_o

I don't know whether to tell you to take more medication or get off medication.

One things for sure the current professionals aren't helping you because you have posted bad problems like this before. Can you find another doctor? I wonder if EFT or TFT treatments might help? Or hypnosis? Or maybe even a priest??

For some odd reason, I am hearing voices today. The current doctor I am seeing is fine, I just haven't seen him in awhile (since October even though I WAS going to see him in December, we had to cancel because of stupid snow). I refuse to take either Zyprexa or Clozaril because of the severe side effects. I have personally known someone that has gained over 100 pounds on Zyprexa. I am already overweight because of all my meds, I can't be 300 pounds or dead because those pills are known to give you diabetes as well as the severe weight gain. Clozaril has this side effect that actually KILLS you! In fact, it is so dangerous that you have to go in for weekly blood tests to see if you are going to live or not. I'd rather have the hallucinations and the delusions over taking those two pills...or is it poison?