Mom is threatening to cut herself if I cut myself

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I can't live like that. I don't want her to hurt herself. I hope she was joking just so I don't cut. I wouldn't be able to live with the guilt that would do to me. That would possibly make me suicidal and I REALLY DON'T WANT TO DIE! I have a bright future ahead of me, especially after this stupid recession. I have a business career with my art, and a speaking career to promote disability awareness for autism and mental health conditions including schizophrenia. I have a mission in the world. I know you guys have told me over and over again that there's no bomb, but I actually feel the shape and everything in my neck. At times the crawling from the nanobots inside of me is unbearable, I can even feel it in my brain. Maybe they are rotting out my brain so I will eventually die. I want to live! Breaking news! I have a brain! That is rare for a human to have (but I think most of you here have one too so don't worry). The reason why people don't have brains is their driving skills. You all know what I'm talking about! Back to the problem. I still feel like cutting because of the feelings and my mission to save mankind from world war 3. I DON'T WANT HER TO ACCIDENTALLY KILL HERSELF and have it be my fault. Can you imagine how much guilt that would put on a person? I am doing well, and I am happy at this moment. I went into the hospital last week and they didn't accept me because my cuts weren't deep enough and I read the DSM IV. Pathetic hospital! Honestly, even though I HATE the hospital, that is where I would feel the safest. Maybe they can perform surgery the proper way to get the bomb out unless the surgeons won't know how to do that kind of operation. Speaking of surgery, the stressor that is bothering me is that my mom needs back surgery, not looking forward to that. She has something called Sjogren's disease which is an auto-immune disease, which makes surgery more dangerous to have, even for simple surgeries. Last time she had a "real" surgery, she nearly died not once, but twice. Her shoulder became infected. But my episode actually started way back in October, progressively getting worse and making me scared to death. I am not delusional about anything. Maybe I should go into the hospital, so it prevents me from cutting and therefore mom won't have to cut. I mean a different hospital, not the one that hates me anyways. Why do they hate me? My medical knowledge and they don't believe a word that comes out of my mouth and they are liars over there. Last time they had bullies that hurt my feelings constantly so AFTER getting out of the hospital I was actually WORSE, and slit my wrist but of course I survived because I did it wrong. Thank god I didn't die! I was super depressed at that time, right now I am closer to being manic and depressed at the same time, a "mixed" episode. So, what do I do?

Woah. Your mum shouldn't have said that, as I can tell you feel like you have to cut yourself, as opposed to doing it by choice. I hope she didn't mean it.

Its a real struggle not to cut because of the you know what. I keep on feeling things all over me and have chips placed throughout my body to control me. I really hope she didn't mean that. I'll ask her.

IF you had chips placed "all over your body" as you claim (Evidence, Please?), then they will be in places that mere "cutting" can not reach. They would be embedded in your central nervous system - your brain, spinal cord, and ganglia - as well as in certain specific nodes controlling your internal organs. Not to mention in places monitoring each of your seven physical senses.

Either way, cutting will not help.

Please stop.

Relax. What reason would any entity have for putting chips in us? Any one of us (including me) could only wish to be important enough for government agents, aliens and whatnot to consider pursuit a worthwhile endeavor.

When I got the equivalent of a three-star wanted level for trying to buy anhydrous ammonia, the police didn't even bother to get the helicopter out. Lame!

They are after me for a reason. I destroyed the economy, it was partially my fault along with Bush. But he was the president so the gov didn't do anything special for him. The chips are in my brain, my legs, and my arms to control movement. The nanobots are in every part of my body. The bomb is in my neck. There are helicopters following me, sometimes I hear them over my house. That is when the cloaked FBI agents go to my house and I hear them talking and see their shadows. I know they are real. I am not making any of this up. The nanobots were trying to eat away at my brain and replace it with robot parts. They are turning me into a robot. The only thing that can kill me when the "transformation" is complete, is the bomb in my neck or the nanobots. Bullets wont even get me. The gov headquarters is near my house, underground in a secret facility. How fun. Then there is the satellite that has many purposes, like receiving my thoughts to beam it down to the gov headquarters, it is armed with lasers that will kill me, it sends me thoughts through the brain chip so I get "thought insertion." It is a scary life.

FireBird, I know you believe this stuff, but I assure you none of it is real

I hope I know reality from fantasy! I ain't psychotic! I am just plain sane and normal!! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

I wasn't implying that you are insane, or making it up, or anything like that.

That's awful. Your mum obviously doesn't understand the whole thing. Thinking of you; trying to send happy thoughts.

I didn't think you were accusing me of making it up, gina. I was just saying that I know reality from fantasy. BTW, thanks for saying that I am sane, that makes me feel good inside!

hello, Your moms acting crazy for whatever reason, dont cut yourself if you need a way to let it out,
may i suggest 2 nateral ways

1. runners high-its great gets you in shape and is free average runners high is 1 mile or more
2.masterbate-this one is as old as time and i know sounds perverted but is a good way to release that does not involes cuts note: dont use soap or cleaner of any kind

bashing a punching bag could help things.