Problems with best friend

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I'm sad. So sad. The only friends I have are online, so I have too best friends. One of them....well, I have strong feelings for him, and I slipped up and now he knows....he didn't seem to take it seriously at all though, but we haven't really talked since. And I used to be at the top of all his friends list and stuff and we would be unsperable. But now im #2 on his Top MySpace friends. and on his MySpace profile it says "Heroes - Garrett, Jack, and Billy and Maxy. The few who keep me here." I'm not mentioned in there

It hurts. Especially since my other best friend is only gonna come on to talk to me about once a week now....i feel so alone, and empty. I know I'm being selfish, and that just makes me more full of hate, and lost.

I cried for five straight hours and then again for two hours I weeped myself to sleep because it seems like I'm losing my best friends. And I didn't know where else to go....I don't know what I'm asking of you; advice, guidance, comfort?

I hate feeling alone. And I hate how no one seems to understand. I told a friend some of this and all they said was to have some chocolate and I would feel better. And I have to pretend to be happy in real life (off the internet) because if my parents think I'm sad/miserable, they'll send me to a [horrible] hospital where kids with behaviour problems or "bad" (suicidal/sadistic) thoughts go. The two worst days of my life happened there, and I don't ever want to go back. So I have to pretend to be happy. And some people act like I'm a freak because I'm sad. I was talking to my friend about suicide and she said suicidal people are freaks, which hurt alot.

But, yeah, there's no where to go it seems. I wanna talk to my best friend, and I want the truth. oh can I add another thing? This friend (Brody) is becoming more and more of a man whore to me (I'm really sorry I said this about him; I am) I mean one week he says "I love Marie" then its "Marie's such a dumb b***h! I love Amber" then next week he loves Lexy, now he loves some girl named Maxy (mentioned earlier if u remember). Besides that, pretty much every girl he talks to online has cyber sex with him, including....

My good friend Angel. She's had a boyfriend, NHM (NarutoHatesMe; these are usernames by the way) for like four months. And NHM has become a good friend of mine. But recently Brody revealed to me that he and Angel (they are good friends; Angel introduced me to Brody actually) have cyber sex a lot. Also, a few days ago Angel was having cyber sex with some chick. And she seemed to have no worries. Or anything. I'm crushed. I'm torn between whether to tell NHM and lose Brody and Angel or not tell and be weighted by that knowledge and feel guilt every time I talk to NHM. And if he finds out, and finds out that I knew, I'll probably lose him.

I realize I've asked a shit-load of questions; sorry about that, I didn't realize how much I needed to vent. I've come to you because you seem to be the only decent forum (for this kind of stuff) on the net. Everywhere else is filled with, well in my view, uncaring selfish fascist as*holes. Again, I don't know what I want from you exactly....so comfort me or answer one of my many questions or....anything you want. Thank you for reading. I'd smile but....yeah.....

That's horrible. I hope things get better for you, I know what it's like feeling lonely like that.