Puck6 wrote:
Oh boy. I think it's come down to me not closely relating to anyone outside of my brotherhood. See, I'm the oldest brother of a few boys, and then there's my stepfather. We all get along okay. Most of the time.
Does anyone else feel that they have no place in the NT world AND the Aspie world? I feel like I'm not compatable with either. It's frustrating, heartbreaking, and horribly painful to realize that... but I can embrace that pain and accept the fact that I'll be truly and utterly alone, aside from a lot of superficial and shallow friendships. Those people I get to know, can't really know me all that much, because I guess we come from too radically different molds.
I can live with that. If I couldn't, I'd be dead already. So it's clear to me now I'm not going to commit suicide.
However, it would be nice to know if there are others out there that don't fit into either world. It'd be cool to know if there are others that come from one-of-a-kind, limited edition molds who now own their own metaphorical islands away from the continents of NT and Aspie.
I feel like this, although I feel closer to aspie. I feel like this because I fail at all my obsessions. I am not able to hold concentration on one thing for any extended period of time; long enough to really achieve something in this area, and my aspie side longs for this above all else. I think this might be caused by ADHD (it's the only possible explanation).
At the same time, although they chop and change a lot, all my friends are NT and I also like to be quite outgoing and enjoy big group situations (as long as they are mixed group situations).
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Into the dark...
17 Feb 2009, 7:27 am
