Parents just don't understand

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Just like the Fresh Prince said... Sometimes I wonder why my parents even went to the trouble of having me diagnosed. I have always had issues with smell. My mom got this new candle burner and it is in the same room as my bearded dragon. I told her I was worried about the scent hurting is lungs. It was SO strong I felt like I was going to throw up whenever I went into the room. She told me I was being "paranoid in a yucky way" when I told her how my beared dragon feels. She just would not listen and would scream and yell and threatnen to get rid of him if I brought it up again. I asked on another message board I am on and she said those people don't know anything about beardies and that I am always posting every aspect of my life on there. She thinks all the people on the bearded dragon message board are nut jobs because ONE lady gives hers a blanket as substrate. Recently she and my dad have become obsessed about "preparing for the worst". They are avid Glen Beck watchers and he recently did a show about what is supposed to happen if the ecomony contunies to get worse. Supposedly we will go into another depression that will be worse than the one we had in the 30's. I NEED to know what is going to happen even if it is just hypotherical. I get so anxious if I don't. My mom says we will let everyone come to live with us and will have to share with the rest of the family and our neighbors (I HATE our neighbors) and will get to know that God is more important than anything. Our dumb neighbors are the dictionary defination of fundamendilst Christians and the yougest one has ALWAYS teased me about my obessions. When I told the parents what was going on they said I should take it and actualy enjoy it. WTF? They also believe it's okay to hunt and I don't. My mom says we will grow our own fruit and vegetables. Why can't we just eat those? My mom said the electric might possibly be out for years we won't be able to keep our generator on all the time. My lizard's life depends on electic. My mom said I will have to learn what is important. My lizard and computer are the only thing that keep me together emotionaly. My parents tell me I am being selfish and need to grow up. When I tell them I might possibly commit sucide they either tell me not to talk like that or that I am going to go to Hell. My mom keeps telling me that whenever I suffer physicaly or emotionaly I am supposed to give it up to Jesus, whatever that means. She tells me I am supposed to think of how Jesus felt when he was on the cross. I can't put myself in other people's shoes. I've tried but I just can't. I want too but I just can't. My parents keep telling me how if something bad really does happen I won't listen and everyone else will die because of me. I understand they can't change things but at least they could be a little more sympathic. I think my parent's gloom and doom talk is making me develop an ulcer. I get so anxious I vomit almost on the daily basis.

You parents sound as if they care but I see what you mean about them not understanding.

Can you move your bearded dragon up to your room so he is away from the smell?

Don't worry. I am going through the same thing right now, in a way different from you.

I am really depressed right now.


I am in my final semester at community college, and about to graduate and transfer to Boise State University in Idaho. But, I am worried (paranoid) about getting my assignments done for this semester. All I want to do is get at least A's and B's for my classes. I just want to f--ing graduate and get the hell out of this godforsaken state. I just feel like I am stuck right now.

My history teacher was forced by the community college into retiring only partway into the semester.

The guy who replaced him is, so to speak, a dingbat. Whereas Dr. Moses was a conservative in name only, this guy is a lackey of business and a former lobbyist.

Three class sessions, and he has not once lectured the class.

Came in wednesday for an intro, then popped a movie in friday and monday.

The class is getting nowhere in the book.

I mean, I have done a report for his class and we were supposed to be up to the fifth chapter in the book and working on later chapters, but we are only at the fourth book, and it is already 5-6 weeks into a 16 week semester.

I dont feel like i have the initiative to do reports this semester. Maybe it is the thrill of graduation.

Family life is not too good. I feel like I am growing further out of touch with my sisters and dad. Dad is a 67 year old man who is depressed from a divorce which occurred 2 1/2 years ago. He is constantly under pressure from my sisters to go places and to buy them whatever they want. I am close to him, but only because I am worried about him and his health.

My little sister is a preppy-type who always looks down on me and my nerdy ways. She gets whatever she wants. Like, recently my dad offered to buy my sisters new computers. The little one's computer broke down, and the other's has no sound. The little one uses mine, and was going to quit once she got her own computer Unfortunately, the young one now wants an I-pod, so she wants to use my computer to download her music. So basically I am getting the shaft. My dad can remember to take my sisters places, but never me.

I feel like my sisters are getting the good end of things but I am stuck in a never-ending status quo. I want to tell my dad that I am gay, but he keeps pooh-poohing my arguments and telling me that it is not a good idea. They complain about how little I actually communicate with them.

The other sister, my aunt, and my ex-mom are religiously fundamentalist. So all I hear is condemnation of my life, and how excited they are about the rapture and the tribulation.

Secularly, I am under a pall of pressure because the stock market seems to crashing ever lower every day right now. I am worried that an economic depression will destroy my "otaku dream" of anime conventions, anime clubs, etc.

I cant even go to school and get away. I don't sleep very well ( it is 1:00 as I speak) and I take naps in the student lounge (it is the only place I can go) every morning after I get off the bus to the college. About 9-9:30, a bunch of guys come in and talk, cuss, swear, and make a whole bunch of racket with the foosball table in the lounge. Then they often want to play halo and dislodge me from the couch. I escape into the student government offices, but they go into the government offices and play youtube videos really loudly.

I must be crazy, I am obsessing over North Korea. That is the worst country on the planet, and I am interested in that.

All I can manage to do is go on long walks in the winter snow and puddles and talk to myself. I think people are starting to notice.

So don't feel alone, I am with you.

If you want to talk, do not be afraid to PM or IM me.

Save the bearded dragon!

i get what you mean about parents not understanding.



Save the bearded dragon!