Even my so called friends are blowing me off now.

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Me and a couple of other people i work with were going to go to the movies tonight. One guy said this moring he could'nt because something came up. The other guy just did not show up, I texted him and found out he was hanging out with other friends of his even after he had confirmed that he would meet me at the movies. So I went alone. Already got my ticket because I thought he might have been inside.

Would have been nice if they just told me they did not want to go instead of misleading me. I'm a piece of crap. No one likes me, I don't know how to change. Just going to stop my insulin and see what happens.

I can tell you what'll happen if you stop your insulin. You'll go into ketoacidosis. I went into it several times in high school from skipping too many shots and being a bad little diabetic.

First you start feeling crappy, like you have the flu. You are both vomiting and having diarrhea, frequently at the same time. After a few hours of that you start being incredibly thirsty, but vomiting the water up every time you drink. I literally wouldn't get away from the bathroom sink from getting a drink before vomiting the water back up, then returning to drinking, then vomiting. In an hour or two I went into a mild delerium. Then I got to the emergency room.

If you want to kill yourself I can't recommend quitting your insulin. It'd be a sucky way to die.

I am sorry your friends blew you off.

Last edited by KaliMa on 10 Apr 2009, 10:32 pm, edited 1 time in total.

Everywhere I have ever worked my coworkers were nice to me for about a week until they realized that I was weird. I worked at the City maintenance garage for one summer and there were about 3 other guys my age working there. We got along fine for the first couple weeks: we even gave eachother rides to Burger King to get lunch and we talked for hours on the job. I even went over to one of their houses to watch a baseball game one night.

But after about two weeks of working there, for some reason, they all just completely turned on me to the point of writing negative graffiti about me in the latrine. I was completely at a loss for why guys who I had been on reasonable terms with had suddenly formed an intense alliance against me. I had said or done absolutely nothing to them other than be cordial, and I had made my best effort there to try and fit in and assimilate. But all the sudden they wouldn't say two words to me and eschewed me in every way and made a point to let me know that I was an outcast. Things have been similar to this everywhere I have worked, so now I am tremendously on my guard about forming friendships or what I say to anyone. I automatically assume the worst and form a zero-sum mentality whenever I enter a new situation.

These are people I have worked with and been friends with for over a year. They don't know about my AS thou.

So, who can reccomend a good way to die?

Dude, if you stop insulin you are just going to start peeing like a mad man! That's not fun.

Suffering does not kill people. Suffering without meaning kills them. You need some meaning, dude. That's all.

I do that anyway when I do take my shot every day.

Have you mentioned that to your endocrinologist? How are your HbA1C's? When your diabetes is not in good control you feel crummy. It can make you feel depressed and listless and hopeless. I've had diabetes for 41 years and I know for a fact high sugar can affect your emotions. Maybe you'll feel better if your Dr. changes your dosage of insulin.

Don't give up now and kill yourself. This may just be a stupid dosage change. I used to get suicidal when I was premenstrual, and after I noticed the correlation I used to say to myself "Well I'm not gonna kill myself over my stupid PERIOD!" Have yourself checked out - this may turn out to be easily changed, and once your mood/outlook changes these issues won't bother you so much.

I have had stuff like this happen all the time. I end up stop hanging with the friends who I'm defiantly sher ditched me, Then I find a few new friends to hang with me that night. In the end I find the ones that do some what care about me come back apologizing and doing anything to make it up to me.

Maybe something really did come up but at least he told you he couldn't make than not telling you at all.

My only friend in person called me midway through last year (actually, I think it was further back than that); I hadn't spoken to him for several years. I kinda went "full autistic" on the phone (I was terrible), and he said he was going to call back and see if he wanted to do something with me (I actually didn't want to see him, as it would have been too overwhelming for me, but that's beside the point). He didn't call back, which annoyed me, as he said he would.

I guess he wasn't my friend anymore. I can't make friends in person anymore (I had to have made them from my early years--I'm ok with the 'net, and I'm guessing knowing from the 'net first will help me if I ever see someone from the 'net in person, which actually sounds really hard to do...); he was only my friend since I knew him from the second grade.

A bullet through the brain is a quick and painless way to go.

I take the same dosage every day. It keeps my sugar down. I don't check my sugar because its the same dose every day. I feel like a junkie taking a needle every day. I'm depressed takign a needle every day because I feel like a druggie. So i'm depressed when I do take my shot and depressed when I don't. I told my doc how I feel about taking a needle and they laughed at me.

I'm not really mad at the first guy that mentioned before at work that something came up. I'm mad at the other guy for not even telling me he would not be there when he said he would.