Lonlieness Creeping in, along with Depression

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I'm tired so pardon any spelling errors ect... My father just came home and i thought he already had a good idea of how iwas going to be, because i wrote him while he was gone, ....well i guess i was wrong Though its small, i am emotionally unstable with 8 pills to take every day, Severe Depression which is still getting worse even though 3 of those pills were supposed to help me, and to make things even worse i had always felt lonley, but its getting worse as i continue, my mom is trying, but she dosen't know how, nor does my father, and im done telling them how i feel, because it always ends up with dad more confused and mom blaming her self for every thing. My intellect i guess is like 10 years ahead of my body because all the things i want to do are too dangerous or hazerdous, ( it was only Liquid-Nitrogen ), i really don't think my parents know just how much "I" know, they say they do, and then turn around and do something the hard way, as i sit there and scratch my head wondering why they are doing it like that when there is a much faster, easier, and better way?

When i start a conversation with them they tend to interupt me and say " What! What have i done wrong this time?", though they have some history to assume on, but thats why they say " Assuming makes an A** out of you and Me", because things are different, but they just don't want to change i guess? I'm 15 can't move out, dont know if i could even support myself if i did ( im very forgetfull), and i just dont want to. I can't make it in to a school yet i could probably ace every test, i would like to have freinds, but i can't find any body who would want to be a freind with me, as you can tell i've already got a difficult and time consuming life, why would anybody want to be my freind? I'm making it through the days, however it's not because i want to it's because thats the only thing i can do . I'm also starting to not even want to eat, though i make my self because i need it, i dont desire it any more?

Any replies are aprreciated, i would like them to be suggestions on how to fix my problem, but at this point, i'd be happy with someone taking the time to talk to me.

Hi, take it from someone who has been there, its not always as bad as it seems. What you probably need more than anything is a friend, to go to movies or spend time playing sport with. I've been in your situation, you desire the following but you think you are not worthy of getting a friend and thus to do the above activities. Its difficult, I know.

Spend time with whoever you can doing fun things, anything you think of even going for a walk. Be around people you feel comfortable with, and try to do as many things that will keep your mind from thinking about any problems. good luck...

The best thing to do right now is drag yourself into school. It may seem pointless, but at least it'll provide some distraction from your thoughs, and you can talk to people that you meet. Don't expect miracles to happen: you're not going to land into friendship immediately, but you can only learn to socialise if you are actually amongst people.

Go easy on your parents. They're human too and they clearly feel bad that you're going through depression.

When getting annoyed or irritated by other people I find deep breaths help, it sounds silly but it helps me, it might help you a little. Also writing down how and what you feel may help you to dislodge some of your bad feelings (for your private use, only share if you really want to). I'm not you, so this may not work for you but it helped me through some of my bad patches. I do hope this helps.

Thx for all the replies, as to the suggestions, I know it sounds stupid, but bare with me. My current living location is the 9 place I have had to move to, so I have a sort of repellent for others, because I know that I could always move again, I've had about a total of 4 freikds in my past that I was having fun with and what not. As for dragging my self into the school, you really would have to drag me in ( and I have a bone structure bogged than both my parents, not fat but just big), something happens I don't know what, but of must have been really bad because to even imagine going into a school, just gives me stomach ache, and I have never been picked on all my life so Im baffled. I appreciate all of your guys replies, thx