Angry and bitter

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I normally don't like discussing my problems, since I get nervous that I might come off as feeling sorry for myself, but I feel that if I don't share this with someone that I'd go crazy, so here it goes.

My dad one time convinced me that if I were to go to college for broadcasting, that he would help get me a job at one of the local TV stations. Since I didn't have any better idea of what to go to college for, I took him up on the offer.

A few years later, after I got a diploma in broadcasting, I got a job at a news/tv station where it just so happens that is who my dad sells advertising for. And then it went downhill from there.

First of all, the pay sucked. I got paid $6.15 an hour, and could only work a total of 25 hours a week. Mind you this is a job that I went to college for.

Then there were the co-workers, which consisted of whitetrash jerk-offs and drunken college kids who would talk about nothing but drinking, and because of this, I barely can have a conversation with any of them. Not to mention they had a bit of a clique going on, with them (along with the boss) screwing with some fellow co-workers who weren't part of the group. My boss/director was bad too, who would yell and get angry at anyone who makes even the slightest mistake. Yeah, I know that directing the news can get stressful, but I can tell you from personal experience that there were other directors who took the stress a lot better than my boss did. Did I mention that, in frustration, he threw his coffee mug at a guy who was operating the teleprompter? Yeah, real professional there.

The last straw came when they started spreading rumors about my hygiene. I took this as extremely childish, so I got a job at Target and I ended my job at the station right then and there.

However, Target only pays slightly better, so I've been struggling. I end up blowing the majority of my money on bills, and I have to go to my parents constantly for some extra cash if I run short. This shouldn't be happening. I hate free loaders, and I promised myself that once I graduated college and got a job that I would never sponge off anyone, may it be my parents, friends, or whoever. Now due to my low paying job, I'm sponging off of my parents, therefore I have broken my promise.

So with that, I'm angry. Angry at my dad for suggesting me this job when he should've known about the pay and how the people who work there act (He even told me of a time where they bullied this shy girl who worked there to the point where she quit), I'm angry at myself for not doing the proper research to see if this would be a good thing to go into, and sponging off of my parents, and most of all, I'm angry at the fact that I've wasted two years of college for nothing.

As a result of that, it has been harder for me to keep my cool. I feel as if I'm just about to explode at anyone, like I just want to hit and swear at those who try to piss me off. I remember a few weeks ago a co-worker mouthed off to me for making a mistake. It was hard, but I managed to control myself enough to not punch him in the face. I'm normally a easy going guy, but it just keeps getting harder and harder to keep my cool lately.

Sorry that this was so lengthy. I'm just very frustrated at my current situation.

Did you waste those two years? I wonder. Once upon a time I was an Education major. It took me about 4 years to realize that it wasn't a career I was remotely interested in. Funnily enough, I don't regret those years at all. Schooling of any sort brings its own rewards. Even if you took the wrong track once, you'll still be ahead of where you were if you hadn't started at all.

I can't offer much help on the job front other than wishing you luck in finding something better than Target (there's got to be SOMETHING).

Why don't you go back to school and take welding this time? Or, or, take one of those career aptitude tests?

No, you didn't waste those two years as you can apply your educational coursework and job experience to some other related
job. Or apply some of that college coursework you completed to another college career major...as long as such coursework isn't
too major-specific. It is just two years...you have your entire life ahead of you.

Stop in at the college you attended for those Broadcasting courses and go to the Academic Services Office...they should be able
to provide you with some career exporation tests to see where your interests truly lie and what you are good at in the way of
job skills. Check out those huge career books in the Reference section of the college or your library to see what jobs may interest you and what to expect the salaries to be before you plunge into another college major for such a career.

Have you considered Vocational/Trade School? Presently, many vocational specialties are in greater demand than college degree candidates. There was a demand for welders during 9/11 in 2001, there was a demand for carpenters and other skilled
employees during the early times of Hurricane Katrina, we need skilled employees to work in the creation of alternative energy
resources, in the food industry, as technicians in the all kinds of medical specialties like X-ray Technicians, Lab Technicians, Emergency Medical Technicians and there is always a need for people who can do Nursing. Get out and explore...do volunteer
work, read career books, talk to people who already work in such jobs, etc.

Good luck!

I'm about to "take a leave of absence" from my university. Really this means that for a year I get to say I'm enrolled there and get the health insurance benefits with tricare, though I don't intend on coming back. Anywho, I don't really consider it a waste of time, though i didn't have to deal with as many jerks as you did. Yeah, I get what you mean though, something has to change. Maybe you could find work at another broadcasting station? If the pay isn't better then maybe atleast the people will be.

thats sucks

if you where willing to move it seems likely you could find a tv station thats at least willing to give you a decent wage, but i really don't know, good luck