the world hates me and i want to die!

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sadly i cant even do thst right.

Me neither.

How are you doing physically? Have you had that operation yet? Is Just You around and being supportive? How about your family, are they available for you now? I think you need some people around who care for you.

Anyway, don't do anything stupid. This will pass. When I get feeling like that I alway remind myself that my life expands and contracts. and while I'm in a period of contracting at the moment, a period of losses where I'm taking hits, it will not last. And it doesn't. Things always get better, the losses I've taken always get replaced with something else.

Gosh, I hate you are feeling that way. I don't think the world hates you but even if it does, get back at it by living. That kept me going for years until I found a better way to cope. Think of it like this "The world hates me but I'm going to keep living just to piss it off!" I know it isn't the ideal attitude but it should do until you can find a better one.

I don't know you personally but you seem to be a good person to me and worth having around. That's a rare quality in a person anymore.

See, the people that have posted so far and the ones who will post later are trying to support you because they don't hate you. That means the world doesn't hate you after all. Live for those few people and to hell with the rest.

Please do not give up on life, I am sure that if you think for a while it is likely that you will think of something you wish to do in this mortal existance called life.

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Diagnosed under the DSM5 rules with autism spectrum disorder, under DSM4 psychologist said would have been AS (299.80) but I suspect that I am somewhere between 299.80 and 299.00 (Autism) under DSM4.

Just me is a great girl. Give her some support folks!! !

I'm just very depressed right now. I'm not gonna kill myself. I'm just so sad. I cant do anything right and I always need someone to take care of me. I feel so guilty about that but I cant do it on my own.

My boyfriend is so helpful ,I just feel bad keeping him up every night when I'm sad. He said its ok and he wouldn't say something he didn't mean.

I'm just so sad, I feel like my brain is working through stuff from my past and it makes me hate myself.

I feel so guilty for everything I do , even it it is something like closing my door to loudly at night. I get so angry at myself for it.

My boyfriend said I feel this way because when I was young I used to get beat for small things like that. So it ingrained in my brain that something small like closing a door to loud is a horrible thing that I'm the most awful person in the world.

I just feel so sad and i feel bad for being sad and i cant do anything right.

i'm also worried I'm gonna have another psychotic episode if I get much more depressed.

My room mates keep shouting at each other and it scares me so much. It reminds me of my past and i get very scared.

I'm just glad that you have such a wonderful and supportive boyfriend. He's one in a million.

Your past probably is affecting your happiness and self worth but I'm not sure that your current environment is doing you much good either.

Can you and your boyfriend take a holiday somewhere? Move to a better place? Redecorate in "happy colours and styles?"

I don't hate you. Please don't die.

I'm sorry you were treated like crap when you were younger.

Maybe you need some help to get over that problem? To learn to stop hating yourself for things that aren't your fault?

Hey Just me,
The world do not hate you. The world have just not seen the happy and cheering person in you. Nobody want you to die. I want you to get stronger soon. I want you to find ways that can help you get strenght and condidence. I hope you can believe in yourself. I hope you can feel yourself useful somewhere. I hope your supportive boyfriend stays with you. I hope you find a way to cope with your past not making it affect you so badly as now. If you get stronger in your soul Im sure your fear wont have such big impact on you.

Just me, Just-Jeff and Just-Xalepax like you whatever mood you are in everyone has a crappy mood once in a while, it's fine. Just-talk it out

You do lots of things right. You are excellent at helping others - lending support and hope. You sing beautifully. You have an open mind and are accepting of others - never putting anyone down. You are very easy to talk with - even for me where communicating is a rather difficult task. You care about animals and probably do them a good service. I can go on, but my point is you just have to think about all the things you are good at and do a wonderful job. I am sure many others here feel that you are a great person with lots to offer. Thanks for being you!

Well to answer gbollard's response,
My boyfriend and I don't live together, He live in England and I live in the USA. We want to live together and he is trying to get to the point where he will be able to work so we can live together.

My room mates are a mother and a daughter and the mother yells at the daughter when she is stressed. I don't know what to do about it and it scares me a lot.
It triggers memories of my past.

Maybe this place is not the best but it is the best place i could afford. I only make 600$ a month and 400$ pays rent and utility's. The only other place I could find that is in the ghetto and I don't want to live there.

I'm ok with it though , its much better then where I came from.


Thank you for you kind response gbollard!