So I had a meltdown yesterday

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I was meant to be going for a meeting with a psychologist for a neuro psychological assessment.
I was in the bus station waiting for the bus... which was 10 mins late so my anxiety was increasing at this point.
I had a coffee, and as I got on the bus, the bus driver had a go at me and said 'you can't take that on' (the coffee).. my mind just went dizzy and I felt sick (I don't like confrontation) and I asked why and he just said 'you can't bring it on' so he didn't answer my question.

I ran off the bus, my mum was still on and I could feel my eyes filling up. My mum got off the bus and shouted at me... everyone at the station was looking at me and I ran to the toilets and locked myself in there for a good 15 mins crying, and my mum had to cancel my appointment.

I'm sick of the injustice in this world. The thing is, there is no reason whatsoever for that bus driver to have a go at me... there were no signs saying you can't bring drinks on.. none whatsoever.
I see so many other people getting on with drinks and the driver doesn't batter and eyelid. It upsets me so much and really makes me wish I was just gone because I don't understand this world and I almost feel that there is no purpose in trying to understand people. I will never understand people. People almost always give me meltdowns because I don't understand them.

I'm sick of this notion of 'rules'. My definition of a rule is one that applies to EVERYONE... not just the select few.. because then it is not a rule and I will not be bound by it. My mum went to speak to someone from Metro and the person said that it is a rule that they can't allow drinks.. but it's up to the bus driver whether he lets you on or not.
Well in my eyes, that is not a rule.

I like rules to be clear and to apply to everyone.

I just feel so down (for other reasons too.. not just this incident).

I wish I could lock myself away and never have to come out.

oh dear, you probably know, if you are feeling stressed coffee is the last thing you should be drinking especially if you have problems with anxiety. i have whipped myself into meltdowns before and drinking coffee because i am anxious and i want to be more alert. it's not the best plan.
it sounds like you are going through an incredibly stressful time right now, that bus driver was just the straw that broke the camels back so to speak.
don't beat yourself up about it though, everyone deals with stress in different ways and i think people on the spectrum have to deal with much more stress because there is this constant influx of confusing and conflicting information.
your lucky though that this meltdown probably didn't do any permanent damage, everyone who saw it will never see you again and i'm sure your mum understands how hard it is for you and will forgive you.

That's kind of stupid. So what you can't have coffee on the bus? You should have expected that and complied. It's a rule that makes sense-- I wouldn't want to clean up spilled drinks and clean up plastic bottles at the end of the day.

I was late for my bus yesterday because I was standing at the wrong bay for 10 minutes. When I discovered the right bay, the bus didn't leave for 30 minutes. So, I was going to be late for an appt that I had scheduled a month ago and they were going to cancel it.

HIGH anxiety. I took 2 klonopin that I had in my purse. Do you have a prescription for anti-anxiety meds? They might help you.

Anyway, I arrived only slightly late and I got to see the doctor.

Here, if you have a bottled drink with a lid on it, you can take it on the bus. You can't bring coffee for some reason though. I guess if you spilled it, it could burn someone?

^^ Oh dear, I am very sorry turborocker. I believe I would also be scared in that situation. I believe I would be very confused for where I may place the cup of coffee as I feel evil for littering, and would then be very scared that I would be delaying individuals and perhaps would miss the bus. ^^ Yaaye, I believe I also live within happy Leeds. Was this perhaps the Leeds bus station may I ask? I often attempt to sit on the bottom of the buses (the happy big buses) as scary individuals often sit o the top part and feel they can be very noisy and sometimes make fun of me. Yaye, and I believe I was born only 23 days before you. (I am very sorry if I have been intrusive however).

This is why I hate buses so much.

I had a similar situation with rules on the bus.
The bus ended up at the last stop, the bus station. I was sitting in the second row of seats near the front.
In the very front, right in front of me, there was an elderly lady.

Anyway, the bus arrives at the station, the doors open. There's a sign that says you're not allowed to exit from the front doors, you have to take the back exit (so the people wanting to get in won't have to wait).

But the lady goes out the front, the bus driver greets her warmly and let's her go, and so I follow her as it's my closest way out. Right then the bus driver just blocks me with some lame little gate thing. He tells me I can't go out that way. And I just shut down. I ended up having to be practically escorted outside the other way by a kind lady that was standing behind me 'cause at that point I just couldn't comprehend anything anymore. Once outside I started getting tears etc.

It just made me so mad. Like you said, if there's rules, they should apply to everyone. INCLUDING elderly ladies, in my case.
If she can still take the bus to places, she sure as hell can walk another 2 meters to get out of the back exit.

I hate buses.

turborocker5000,
am do not use buses but have seen on stage coach buses at least [other ones may be different] they have big stickers on the window showing a cross through a picture of food and and drink.
A ban on food/drink is not fair on those who are ok with holding their drink/food,but they cant be selective so they have to ban it for everyone.It does not sound right though that drivers are being selective on whether to let someone on with a drink or not,what exactly is their way of choosing who is going to chuck it or not? it sounds discriminatory.

If do not want to have a problem with drinks again,what about putting it in a carrier bag [as long as its got a top on],twist the bag handles so there's no space in it to fall over,and walk on and drink or wait till have gotten off?
Or buy a thermos mug/flask and pour the coffee into that,can stand it easier in a bag and it stays hotter longer.

When onboard regulation of food & drink is up to discretion of the individual driver, there is bound to be problem with fair and universal enforcement of the rules, because as such there are no rules. This is more or less standard operating procedure. Each driver knows what they can and can't handle regarding onboard activity of passengers.

That said, if I felt I was being unfairly discriminated against, it would have been infuriating.