Suicide?

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Who else often feels drawn to end it? I am diagnosed with Major Depression besides AS and have 4 attempts under my belt. Only one was noticed enough that I went to the hospital. I'm less likely on all the meds I'm on but sometimes still would rather die than keep facing the pain that life is. Who else has tried or come close?

Oh yeah. A few times. I get cluster headaches and migraines, so more often then not, my head hurts. Add in major depression, and yeah.

But yeah, Stick through it.

Things improve with time.

I tried with a knife but, I failed.
I think of death very often.
The last time I got drunk and while I was under the influence I opened my antidepressant meds and took about 6 pills.
I wasn't planning on taking the pills. I don't even remember doing it, but the next day I woke up very late and my pill bottle was open and 6 pills missing.
I failed because I was too drunk to think that just 6 pills would do the job, but I do remember that I wanted to die when I was drinking.
If you are concerned about suicide, then look for help. Call a mental health clinic.

I tried slitting my wrist last year but as you can probably tell I am "alive." Still very depressed. The word "hope" doesn't register in my mind.

I've struggled with thoughts of suicide since I was 16. This is largely due to being so alone and feeling no one understands or cares. Currently, the main reason I don't do it is my son.

I can get quite suicidal. I tried once with 2 boxes of ativan and one box with klonopin. Didn't work (obviously) - just slept for 2 days. I don't think I'll try again.

Keeping to a low stress & warm people environment is the key for me.

Being suicidal sucks, doesn't it?

Well I became suicidal in 5th grade, but ever since I found out about this site I feel more positive that people are going through what I went through and I am helping people with my blogs.

i had suicidal thoughts earlier but now ive rehidrated, with electrolyts and more v8 juice. i actually feel alot better almost high. like a buzzing, and plus i am moving in 2 days.

your brain chemistry is out of wack when you have suicidal thoughts, so you need some vitamins and positive thinking

I think about it. But never tryed anything. Trying to think of a good way to do it.

change your perspective, change your life. that sounds lame but its almost entirely true, what i mean is, sometimes change is good.

I feel suicidal often and it is very difficult and its hard to talk about it as it upsets people and then I dont talk which makes it worse. I always end up telling people I feel better so that they dont worry. It really distances me from people as I have to keep so much to myself.

I think suicidal thoughts are part of life for many aspies as we walk a lonely road and never belong or fit in, always feeling unwanted and an outsider. I feel like life is not for me and it is a mistake. and that is coupled with not being any good at the things that our culture values such as family, relationships, friends and work. Its hard to think life is ok when you cant do any of those things.

Its very hard to keep going sometimes, very hard.

I can't/couldn't do it. If I start to watch a movie, I can't leave it no matter how bad it gets. I just HAVE to see how it ends! I look at life like that; I can't remove myself voluntarily, I just have to see how it ends on its own.

That didn't make a bit of sense, did it?

It did to me. Despite how bad life may be at times, I know there are also good times and I cannot imagine what I might miss out on 1,2,5,10, or even 30 years down the road. I want to see how it ends, I hope it has a happy ending.

This coming from someone who is depressed as hell today for no reason ... just one of those AS things, I suppose.

During one major depressive episode, I swear I was so close. I still have daily suiciddal thoughts, even on a good day. Even if I'm having a good day, I can't help but think that life usually sucks and I should just get it over with.

I've had such thoughts even longer, for similar reasons in my case it's my parents why I don't do it (I don't think anybody outside my family would care much). I have access to sedatives and powerful poisons, so means, physical pain, etc aren't issues. But as long as my parents are around, I will not do it.



Same here. It's not just that they're culturally valued, though; I genuinely want friendships, a relationship, a family of my own, etc. My life feels purposeless and empty, mostly.

I tried attempts with OTC meds (Nyquil and such) and cutting my wrist/carotid artery (couldn't cut deep enough.) The major one I took like 60 of my blood pressure pills and some anti-depressant and stomach meds. That got me in intensive care. Interestingly, the times I tried OD'ing on Nyquil the next night 2 beers wiped me out.