Why are you DEPRESSED at the moment

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still trouble coping with the diagnosis

I admit that it was pretty stupid of me to drink a Monster, before bed.

Because I'm alone, and because I feel like I have no future.

I'm still mourning the passing of Pete Quaife, and I'm crying silent tears, because I'm at my parents place and I don't want to be found out, or else I will be told that I'm not healthy and to expand my bloody horizons. I'm a very stubborn person. I will not change with the times, just yet. Give me another 20 to 30 years and than, I'll think about it.

All I've done to my car this week is remove an insignificant amount of sound deadening. I need to make some real power and soon. Or maybe just remove at least another 100lbs.

I feel out of place at my parents home, and it's bloody hot, in this room. You think that my parents would know, or even care that I'm sensitive to heat. I'm sure that my mum will accuse me of sleeping with the blind up and the window open, even though I've only opened the window, an hour ago.

Because I hate my college classes, filled with ditzy public relations majors and sorority-types who condescend me whenever I make a reference to anything "geeky", and having parents who blame all my interests on Asperger's. I put my "race" for a survey in Statistics class as "Human", (obviously I can't be an elf, orc, hobbit or gnome I later told the class) and the person in charge of my group wouldn't accept it. All my classes tell me to "spend some time in real-life" Why? It sucks! I have no friends there, nothing epic ever happens, and I can't even be myself without being made to look like an idiot.

I can't do anything right, today.

dismiss form college.