I didn't get the job at the internship company that I wanted, there was still some work that had to be done before they could hire me but unfortunately it wasn't possible to hire me.
It's a pity, I really looked forward to working with them and I also didn't have a back up internship because I was almost hired. I was also with my friends at college looking for internships and they both got hired at the same company and they did it over a phone call (same company as in they both had an interview with a different company, not the one I wanted to go to), I'm really happy for them but it would be more fun if I didn't get rejected.
While I was still at college I called at least one company and already looked for new companies, the company I called works at the same office as the other one and makes similar content. I also noticed that all the ads on my college were mostly small or regular media companies; This makes sense because I'm studying media design, but I realized that I'm more of a filmmaker than a media designer and even though I'm studying media design I still want to use my Audiovisual talent for films rather than reports, interviews, filming at events etc. My friends also looked at film companies so why am I still looking at media companies.
Now I have to come back for the rest of the week and possibly next week to find a new internship company.
When I left the room the teachers said "Good luck" to me, it was nice but I was really sad and it didn't cheer me up somehow.
At the train station I sat at a bench and stared into the distance, this is something I always do when I'm sad.
(train was delayed btw)
When I got home I went to my bed and lied down until I fell asleep, also something I do when I'm sad and it always helps :U
I always start cringing whenever I talk like this but it feels better than keeping it to myself.