Post something that made you UNHAPPY today.

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Mother.

the chainbearer sporting newly tarnished hair made it's 38438483th return, in me, this time sporting a house devoid of any dogs so mine could have entered. an invitation from nowhere for...what? christmas? could the house be the same as i saw it nearly two years ago now?

the "new" house?

The outcome of just about every NFL game played.

I went grocery shopping with mom and she ran into me with the cart. I got mad at her because it made me spill my handful of items I was carrying.

It was hard for me to wake up today. I took a caffeine pill, been up for a couple hours & I still don't feel fully awake.

One of the reasons I go on WP is to feel less depressed and isolated. But then I see posts by people saying how horrible autism is and that they want to be cured or how non-aspies think we're emotionless psychopaths, and I end up feeling a lot more depressed. And these are the posts that aren't even on The Haven or get moved from there for some reason.

I am pissed off every day because my maggot-infested mind refuses to find anything interesting. I don't believe it's depression because I take a high dose anti-depressant and - with the exception of apathy - I don't possess any of the symptoms associated with depression.

To be honest, I am surprised I have made it to 25. If ever there was an example of an exercise in futility it would be my entire existence. There are decaying dog turds which have more meaningful lives than me.

What makes me unhappy, is to have people think they know what careers or occupational choices would actually fit me, yeah right! I'm the one whom knows what I'm good at and what I really like yet, often I've found myself in a vicious circle due to the fact, most persons just simply throw me into a career not really knowing if it's autistic friendly or not therein, I wind up becoming disenchanted time after time..

i forgot to pick up ingredients for my wednesday potluck pepper bean salad while grocery shopping today.

I wish he didn't go to bed at 9:30 every night. Gosh, I'm still digesting dinner at 9:30. About 10:30-11:00 is when I start to feel like talking to someone but nobody is there

the fact that it still feels like yesterday #Insomnia

Auditory hallucinations meaning everyone seems to be having a go at me.

nothing.

I got woken up by the mail carrier this morning & I got woken up again right as I was falling back to sleep by my girlfriend coming back from visiting family. I fell back to sleep but I feel tired cuz I didn't get enough or sleep the best. I took a caffeine pill & that's helping alittle but not enough.

Thinking made me unhappy today,

Its never a good thing when I do, I just need to be brain dead in front of Skyrim to be honest. The more I think about stuff the less it helps and the more depressed I become. Its seems like life only gets harder to handle yet some how I manage to bottle up more and more feelings inside to the point that I am numb. Nothing and no one matters to me anymore cause I feel like anything I own or any person I have a relationship with can just be ripped away from me. I think I need to post in the haven actually, my last couple post have been a bit on the rambling side...

Sorry for that,

Christmas shopping with my brother was pretty annoying. He was so overbearing with ideas about what I should get for people that I ended up buying one or two presents that I totally didn't want to buy. So I went proper shopping for myself after I dropped him home. Now I have a roaring headache.