I am questioning the meaning of everything....again.
I seem to be bereft of all emotion and I continue to have a complete lack of ambition.
I do not desire to be rich or even financially secure.
I do not desire intimate relationships, for I am an asexual. Nor do I desire any other type of relationship with anyone.
I do not desire to be "happy", for I do not believe in the notion of happiness.
My life just feels like a sequence of futile events, in which my interactions with other humans are devoid of authenticity.
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"Every day, once a day, give yourself a present. Don't plan it, don't wait for it, just let it happen. " - Special Agent Dale Cooper, Twin Peaks