My life was better as a mute.
You should never have forced me to become verbal.
That was a mistake.
When you can speak, people assume that you are able to have a conversation.
The "conversation" today:
He: I won't be here in September.
Me: Why?
(He lifts up his shirt. There are several, huge blackish-blue lumps on his torso)
He: Lymp_____, cancer. In my mouth too. Got to have it seen to. If I don't it could get serious.
Me: (long awkward silence) Oh, well, you don't want it to get serious (nervous laugh, more awkward silence, I walk off).
He thinks I'm an as*hole. I want to die because I feel so bad.
If I was mute I probably would have looked sad and patted his arm.
In truth I could have done just that.
But you demanded I must speak.
Because speaking is "better".
You were WRONG.
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It's like I'm sleepwalking