Post something that made you UNHAPPY today.

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Did I just quote somebody and not say something?
Shoot.

- dad is totally ignoring me, and sabotaged me this morning by making me late for work on purpose. I know I'm insane but at least I'm not malicious with it; he's a nasty piece of work, and pretending to take the moral high-ground too, which makesmewanttopunchawall. And breathe...
- my knee is weird again, I think it's the cold. Feels like the muscle is too close to the bone
- still feeling depressed, though I'm pushing through. Don't think I hid it that well today as somebody picked up on it .

Family conflict.

The notion that everyone is out to get me no matter what opinion I have on something no matter how I think or feel and the feeling that I've almost completely lost control over my life and mental state leaving feeling completely overwhelmed and terrified of almost everything, and the feeling of isolation I just can't break no matter how many people I seem to be around

Woke up at 4am in terrible pain and couldn't get back to sleep I am going to be very tired by the time I finish work tonight at 10:30.

I spilt coffee in the cereal aisle in a nearby garage. I am such a klutz.

slow start to the day.

My professor, who knows I have ASD and has agreed to let me work alone, basically told me to help a classmate with her work today.

There is something on the Toy's R US website that I really wanted to get that is exclusive to their store. So I splurged on a couple of gift cards so I can order it to be delivered to my home. But then I discovered you can only order it to be in the store.

And since the nearest Toys R Us is about a 4-5 hour drive from my apartment, I'm not about to just hustle down and by it there. I already went shopping there last summer with my mother. I doubt we're going to take another trip so soon.

I'm very disappointed that I can't get it and I don't want to spend my cards on anything else unless it becomes available for online delivery. I've been obsessing and even tried to find it on Amazon but no such luck and they'd probably charge a fortune for a 50$ toy anyway.

Also my tablet won't come on for some reason even though I was sure I fully recharged it. And I just got the new hospital built in The Sims Freeplay.

I just feel kinda sick today.

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Ya, I'm weird like that...

Went to my credit union in person today, bit of a drive (in a previous town I lived in). Walk inside, no tellers? ATM Machines that has a live video chat and so load, everyone can hear it. Now on most things I would rather not deal with people, but sometimes I want an actual human being to assist me… I will be canceling my account and switching.

My car's temporary license plate expired on Sunday and I'm still waiting for my tags to come in for it, but it turns out that they still haven't came in the mail. I can't drive because even though I have a piece of paper to show that my car's tags haven't came, I don't want to get pulled over due to anxiety triggers. I know that someone is taking me to my classes tomorrow, but the situation is stressing me out like crazy that it's making me cry!

Got hit with $60 medical bill for absolutely no reason, its for a missed appointment but the law is actually in my favor to not care. Services not rendered, I'd win that in court if they were stupid enough to sue me for $60 which they can go ahead and do for all I care. Still seeing the bill pisses me off and the context of the missed appointment is even worse. When it comes to bills, I pay who I want to pay and if I don't respect you, then I don't pay you. Consequences be damned in my opinion. I am not paying something I don't feel I owe.

nothing today.