The thing is... I might have been too obsessed about it, I think I was more obsessed before attaining it than after it, considering timescales... and while I survived for years, my eventual declining interest might indeed have blunted my "smart" aspects to not miss the obvious. I don't even know why I'm suddenly obsessed about it anew now... my life must be so empty... it wasn't even this empty when I first attained it, and despite repeating to myself that, rationally, it never did make me happy, nor will it in the future (unlike a relationship, which funnily I had for seven months while also having this 'omnipotence'... which made me more happy, though? Obviously not the latter...) - I wish I just stick to video games or something, while they're systems confined to a certain logic and unless cheats are used only skills are relevant, they at least do not rely on others... oh, what am I saying, of course, there are many 'team games' which can result in utter, utter frustration... like, recently, after not playing for months I got the second highest score of the team, this after months and some quick re-adjustment to keys... our team actually got twenty more in score than the other team... but who's the winner? Maybe I should stick to NES games, at least there, despite their difficulty, it's just about my skills...