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I have noticed that I don't value my life very much. I'm not actively suicidal anymore but I just don't care so much about possibly risking my life by not taking care of my health. I have become somewhat apathetic. Not even depressed anymore, just apathetic.

When you feel like how you reluctantly need to bus to a certain HR place to verify that you have not been overpaid and thus avoid possible 'reporting hassles', the words 'everted' and 'zygomatic smile'

Mariusz Pudzianowski

The sort of display of strength made ~a decade ago, which might make some (myself included) feel like photoshopping their face onto this specifically trained man and put a caption saying 'mental health problems' over the airplane:

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/159 ... -done-that

Imaging a 'working class' European person who ~100 ago or several decades ago might have saved up for admission to a museum and after seeing the more contemporary stuff go ~" 0_o..the h-- was that D:< ?!,that's what rich ppl are into?!."

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Mark Rothko, Robert Morris and Jim Henson.

Video games as a source of inspiration for sculptural art..

Papier colle.

How I felt used and misled.

I think my stepdad bases what I 'should' know based on my looks rather than based on how long he's known me or my age.

Eg I'm 30. If someone is 30 and knows modern music, they're clearly a music buff or an old person at the clubs. He keeps suggesting I do 2010s decade in music quiz. I know nothing of that decade. My era is 2000s because I'm y'know, not a teenager anymore...

Weirdly I know a lot of the 60s ones but I think that's because Westlife and bands like that did a lot of cover versions.

It really winds me up when people think I should know teenager things. What's in the charts is something teenagers know, not a lot of proper adults.

Today is St. Patrick's Day, but it's just a regular boring old Sunday to me. Not that I actually want to celebrate quaint and charming Irish culture by getting gut-wrenching drunk and other such nonsense. All I did was get a Shamrock Shake at McDonald's. I was going to buy vanilla ice cream and make a home-made version with green food coloring and peppermint extract, but they had mint fudge ice cream for sale and I decided to buy that instead and eat it the way it is.

I'm actually celebrating with traditional music. But at home, on my own, sober.

Saint Patrick's day is one of the least appealing to me because I don't drink.

Trying to figure out why my fax won't go through, when I have put everything in correctly.

Jobs for disbarred lawyer

Paralegal

"Discrimination" against convicted felons

Failure

"Most people" overvalue happiness

My breasts feel large and heavy

If counselor Jeanne Courtney came to court and told me that at 4pm Tuesday, I was in her office, so I could not have convicted the felony in question, and, as a result, I don't have to go to jail, . Then that is a statement she could tell me, that "helps" 75 bucks. You can't "prove" nothing she tells me, in the office, would "helping" me 75 bucks. But nothing she told me "helped" me 75 bucks


"Show your work".

Mister redelings "hurt" me ten dollars and he got zero

Jeanne "helped" me one dollar and she got 75

That's like saying, someone told me I was weak for lifting one pound. Someone lifts two pounds

If someone and I are competing for a manual labor job, someone is more qualified


If it's a wrestling competition, then weight classes


"Did he know he was ignorant?" . Counselor Heather asked

He was ignorant

Everyone is ignorant

He did not know he was ignorant

unconscious incompetence




So what?

Everyone either underestimate, correct, or overestimated their skill

You can't measure skill, and it is constantly changing

"The price is right". The closest without going over..

Bakers dozen, the closest without going under





"Show your work"


Jeanne is a gay psychotherapist in El Cerrito 2016

Mister redelings is civil engineer, 2006 San Diego

The lil penis is not precognitive

He was a good Samaritan


That's like saying, if it was snowing and a car ran me over. And I asked him to ""help" me. And I had 10000 dollars of injury. And he tried and failed and now I have 2000000 dollars of injury, that's not his fault

Good Samaritan.

He is not a doctor

He did not claim to be a doctor

He did not take $$

He did his "best"


No civil lawsuit

Good Samaritan law protects him






He does not need malpractice insurance









Show your work






f**k mister redelings


f**k Jeanne Courtney



Entitled lil dipshits simpletons












Should not have trusted them


Or even interacted with them

A lot of depression/inability to think straight getting lost in thoughts/losing track of real life
Followed by a LOT of anger (yesterday n today).

Today i felt extremely angry at ASD ppl trying to say all parents advocating are just as bad n harmful as THEIRS were n projecting motives n actions without knowing any detail at all with broadbrushstroke sh!ttiness

Typical of twitter ActuallyAutistic nazi bags.

I wrote many long explanations of how n why i advocated fr my son n what wd have continued happening ifi didnt etc
I gave specific examples EG the very unstable nurse Joyce rippinh out hisg tube then refusing to help clean up the blood
School teachers last yr strapping him all day in corner sayin ‘he wanted to b there’ which wasnt true

n how the car coordinator Judy went in many times n stated i was correct n she complained to principal n arranged fr meetings if i hadnt advocated they wd have continued treating him like a dog that is tied by his leash to a tree outside a shop

I gave much more detailed explanations

But fuming that these ActuallyAutistic lowlife scum dare project n demonize a necessary advocacy

Tht cd stand between negligence/abuse n proper care
Life n death

I am soooo angry since That therapy session at such scum. They all remind me of that lawyer, law clerk n X mIL (when she tried fr three days to poison my son)

I will tell her tom about my MIL’s actionsn send her the scanned evidence n proof in sick kids hospital records