Post something that made you UNHAPPY today.

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I really don't know...

I feel like I'm having such bad luck lately though. The dog biting me, the kidney stones, and now this.

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My mom exaggerating about how much the monthly Internet bill is.

In fact, she just said that she will end Internet service when she returns from her native land after the New Year.

I’m doing laundry today, I did 3 loads, toooo much on my feet I also had to dry my clothes twice, I spend $2 on the dryer, the washing machine is $1.75

Still waiting to hear back from the program I'm trying to apply for. It's been five weeks now and they still haven't sent me an application. I'm getting less and less hopeful the longer this takes. My mom seems to think the best thing to do is just keep waiting and I have trouble speaking over the phone (even more so than I do in person), so I guess that's what we're doing. She thinks they'll probably tell us if they reject me, I'm afraid it will be like job applications where you just don't hear anything back if they don't accept you and they've already decided not to accept me for some reason.

A year ago , i felt all persons had right to life, ( kinda still do) but , !
So i joined lambda leading Lbgtq organisation (Gay rights and etc org.). Paid money , have had friend in past , who was killed cause of his being hisself . It was clearly a murder. Watched.Trial progress . Obviously as it progress . It was to be buried and covered up. This Lambda org , sent money to , to support them staring 5 yrs ago . Inspite of my repeated ..! Request for the Org ,that touts themselves as " We are your Lawyers"
Are a do noting org. That just wants public atten. And your money .This friend of mine , i was close to.. never had fear of him. Easy to talk to , do not know if he was a aspie of not , but was a decorated veit nam vet. In the air force , he was happy to say , he never had to shoot anybody ,but got shot at
Alot. Am fully ashamed to be associated with lambda. "Your Lawyers" as repeatedly have tried to go to bat to help right this wrong of his murder .. They just send adverts to me for more money.

Waiting.

Anxiety about going into work.

Ants in my bathroom, both my ankles hurting , my feet are sooo numb & tight, & someone have car alarm on. I forgot I had anxiety & I couldn’t stop.

Anxiety.

People on WP saying Toy Story 4 is trash because of its blatant feminism and that Disney is evil. Why is everything I like so wrong?

I've only been awake for a few minutes and already my day sucks. And it wasn't going to be very enjoyable to begin with because I have a dentist appointment early this afternoon to get a cavity filled and the traffic will be horrible because of Black Friday.

I hate my life. I'm a loser at everything. Why do I choose to go on living? Besides the fact that death is terrifying, permanent, and there's probably no afterlife?

*screams into the abyss*

I got an 89% on my third biology exam (which is also the exact score I got on the previous exam), WHY CAN'T I BREAK AN A. IT'S DRIVING ME CRAZY.
I now have an 88.67% in the class. This is so ridiculously frustrating. I just need an A!! !
The class average was a 60% so I guess I should feel okay about this, but I'm just mega frustrated. ;(

My trip to the dentist later today was huge disaster and I had one of the worst meltdowns I've had in months. I've been feeling depressed and worried and anxious and emotionally hurt, and having to go get a cavity filled didn't help. I managed to let the dentist freeze my mouth but he wasn't able to drill me. It's been two or three years since I last needed a filling but I remember having a meltdown then as well, but it was mild and I was able to calm down quickly. I also remember the dentist not giving me enough freezing and it hurt and he noticed and had to give me another injection to numb it more. I was worried that was going to happen again, too.

I ate chocolate.