We've gotten close enough that you have a good understanding of how I tick. Deep down, I hope you notice that I look you in the eyes when we speak. I hope you notice that the times you touch me, I don't flinch. When you hugged me, I didn't get uncomfortable, I hugged you back a little more. I hope you notice that I generally avoid eye contact and have problems with physical contact as far as other people are concerned. Yesterday you told me something about yourself that we have in common, and I meant it when I said "Just when I thought I couldn't possibly like you any more, you drop this bomb on me". You know I am unreservedly honest. You know I don't pick up on flirtatious signals; I've read so many books on the subject but my inner monologue hates me and leaves me questioning. If you have been throwing me signals, I haven't been ignoring them, I just don't get them, and I hate it because I wish I knew how you felt, or if you are even curious about how I feel. I'm on the cusp of making some drastic changes in my life, and you could be a factor in my decision making if you wanted to be. I know there are so many reason why it's not a good idea, but it could be sweet, and I would prefer we come to an agreement together.
Yes, I'm an idiot. I need a neon sign, but would prefer something not so offensive on the eyes.