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Mornin'.

I know that Canada's going to win the Gold in Women's Hockey.

Last Tuesday it snowed in San Antonio, Texas where I live.

It's pretty warm, where I am. I wish it would snow in Langley, BC.

If you can't be yourself, in today's liberated world, you might as well be dead.

It's nice to see the rain again, after so many dry days.

Well, something went wrong. Very wrong. Started last night...... started four years ago. I first became worried on january 2009. At first i was making huge discoveries every few months, then every month. I had lots of time to process it, celebrate and calm down. It was always a smooth curve, there was never a point in time where discoveries jumped up. They were always increasing steady. By january 2009 i was making one discovery per week and for the first time i didn't have enough time to understand them all before i moved on to the next.

I wanted to slow it down but then i was scared that if i stop i may not be able to resume later. I was the only human capable of those discoveries therefore it was my responsability to carry on whatever the cost. I felt i was going to reach the singularity alone.

By january 2010 i was making one big discovery per day. My head was a mess of ideas. Organic physics became outdated when it was still beginning to take shape. I didn't even have time to write my discoveries down and some were lost in the chaos my mind became.

By mid february 2010 i started making two discoveries per day. On February 25, at night, my jaw started biting tight, on it's own. I know enough about the brain to know that this was a symptom of something wrong inside.

On february 26 at 5 A.M. i had a lightbulb moment... with no idea. I felt inside my head that familiar "click" that happens when you put two facts together and realize they're related, when you discover something big. Except i didn't discover anything. It was an empty click. And my jaw was still tense after a good night of sleep. Later, by 7 A. M. i did have my first big discovery of the day. Then minutes later another empty click happened and my jaw was so tense i couldn't speak well. And that was it.

I decided that my brain is not capable of supporting the chaos of reaching the singularity or whatever i was conceptually heading for. Biologically i was heading for a stroke or something like that. I was making so many discoveries i couldn't even celebrate the bigger ones properly. I was on constant celebration. It ends here. I have enough. It will take me a lifetime to publish organic physics, quantum psychology and of course the cure. It's enough. I don't remember what it was i discovered this morning. I don't care. From now on i'll be making an effort to keep my brain silent. The days of mental silence that i had in mid january 2008 will return. I might research again, who knows. But not from here until i finish my second book.

R.I.P. Fernando's Research
February 16, 2006 - February 26, 2010

I've decided to stay here at WP, under no conditions. I really like it here.

I'm just a sucker for your love.

Go Canada, go!

Bring me that horizon.

Go Aussies!

At this Winter games, Australia has had its best result ever!
two gold medals and a silver. Not bad for a country where it doesn't snow much.

It's getting late, here. I'm going to bed, soon.

Man, I'm gonna be peeling flakes off my back for the next year

I was supposed to ring my dad when I got home on Thursday evening but I forgot, and I was supposed to visit him to check out his new place but I wasn't bothered. I'm such a bad daughter .

I'm taking up spearfishing. I was thinking of bowfishing, but I'd rather be under water as I'm a water baby.

Who wants to be normal? Normal is boring.