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I'll be brutally honest I'd say that you've went through hell and I'm not saying that to assuage your sense of compassion cause, that is my actual thoughts on this matter. I'll admit I don't enjoy living with the eternal remnants of psychological abuse not in the least.Often I wished I could say every damned thing that has run through my mind even if it was blatant harsh or absolute horrendous.Somehow, I'm still human even with a bunch of upsetting things which have taken place in my life as, often I like to see myself as like Annakin Skywalker somewhere between the dark and light of what makes up a person.

I don't know what else to add.

Eh, what can I do for the rest of the month?

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Feel free to talk to me, if you wish.

Every day is a gift- cherish it!

"A true, true friend helps a friend in need."

I guess I wanted to hurt myself. I guess I have. Hopefully no one else.

[quote[]Honestly, I hope your day today will hopefully be a better one?[/quote]


Thank you. I don't deserve you being nice to me.

don't deserve?, your still human and deserve the rights of a human being, something I used to say when my grandmother alive. So, you welcome to accept the humanity it's merely choice as nothing is forced nor mandated whatsoever.

I am contemplating both how much better an anaemic feels when beginning iron replenishment (the body was literally starving for the vitamin and perks back up perceptibly almost immediately which makes me feel bad for it really) and how bad sleep disorders can get so quickly even on medications in certain situations.
Good / bad polarities everywhere.

Hurting yourself accomplishes nothing, I recommend 100% isolation instead, trust me your going to die either way so why rush it? Just get a good PC, install Steam and Minecraft and don't move until you die of old age.

Its what I am doing,

I don't have much else to do..... yet.

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Feel free to talk to me, if you wish.

Every day is a gift- cherish it!

"A true, true friend helps a friend in need."

TheSilentOne and djc123, I didn't cut or something like that, I drank too much last when I know I can't handle it. It was supposed to be fun. That + reprressing emotions + obvious denial - gives an ugly gooy sack of s***. The worst is I could talk to people I know, it's just so hard. So I went for a walk, ate outside under the trees and spent some time near the river. It was calming. I'm ok. And I'm sorry.

Fully understood Danae

Gonna be another slow day gone by today.....

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The Canadian Football League - What We're Made Of

Feel free to talk to me, if you wish.

Every day is a gift- cherish it!

"A true, true friend helps a friend in need."

Women.

My ex-girlfriend and I are still somewhat close, but this could be solely because we are rather isolated individuals, thus our circumstances could be clouding our thoughts. Moreover, she has BPD and I am autistic, which could well be an awful combination in the long term.

However, there's someone else I believe I am developing feelings for but a relationship may not be possible as I think - yet do not know - that we live quite far away from each other, and she may not even be interested in me.

And despite this, I still remain ambivalent about my sexuality. Whilst I am by no means a misanthrope, I find the vast majority of people are rather repulsive.

My mom just entrusted me with the most difficult and important choice ever...

Where are we gonna go out to eat tonight?