Got Anything Random To Say

Post Reply New Topic

I feel empty. I am too exhausted to feel sad.

i'm past the point where i feel like i'm gettin' old.

Hopefully both of you soon feel better there.

I've been going through all of my clothes looking for holes to sew up. Found a couple of shirts with some holes, which again, I probably shouldn't feel so much enjoyment over, but I do. I'll take those fleeting moments of flightless joy.

I have to go to the library.

Lots to do again.

Campus

OK. I have settled down. I know there is something inside me that is good and that when I can focus on that, my life is better and I am more use to others.

I am now sewing two large pieces of fabric together because I need to remove myself from that emotionally sensitive moron I can be. On that note, I wouldn't mind hand-forging my own needles, as it's basically just the equivalent of nail-making, so hardly anything is needed. I'd no doubt make them out of tough spring steel and quench at a high hardness because I can be stupid like that too. They'd look better than the nickel plated ones of today after grabbing a patina from handling them, along with the forging marks. Yeah, sewing needles are currently my indoors interest. No idea where that one came from.

The expired antibiotics were fine, which is what they say as long as stored correctly and barring some exceptions (liquid Amoxicillin, for example). Noted dramatic improvement within a couple of days for the sliced gum, which is how it goes. You shouldn't do this barring an emergency situation though (the cost-benefit was worth it in my case), or so they say. Professional Autistic and all here, and I had to modify the dosage of something else due to a higher plasma concentration from an interaction (P450 enzyme stuff).

campus is near empty as the students move away.

I Recently understood that the angry episodes i experienced after i came back from school might be meltdowns. I didn't know how to handle all the stress from school. Still makes me sad and guilty.

Quiet day. I’m alone, which I really like. Walked a mile with a pack, getting in shape for portaging. Met a new neighbor.

https://drive.google.com/file/d/17eo8aAC394QLWr6d-kJ4eRUEOff3n6qG

_________________
.
I don't know how to act my age, I've never been this old before. Which begs the question....
Since ASD means various parts of the brain stop developing at various ages...
Just how the hell am I supposed to know WHICH age to act, anyway?

I might go to the university library today.

If I ever get a new pet, I think I will give it a human type of name so that I can enjoy people's confusion when they think I'm talking about my kid but then mention something such as, "Bradley doesn't seem to like his new bed, he'd rather sleep on the towels in the bathroom closet", or "Jennifer just loves baby carrots, every time I open up a bag of them she starts running around in her cage".

It is really cool outside today. Very windy.

Roast chicken for dinner.