Post something that made you UNHAPPY today.

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barely having the energy to move

Found out somebody I very much look up to and admire is moving. Professional relationship so no keeping in touch or anything

Not exactly UNHAPPY, more like PO'd. I got this new protein drink from Amazon - ViSalus. I wanted a protein drink similar to Shakeology but cost less. Did like the directions stated - 2 scoops in 12 ounces if almond milk. Within about 30 min I started feeling weird and couldn't put my finger on it. By 40 min my heart was racing and I felt like my head was going to explode. Felt hot and cold and panicky. Chest felt tight and I was extremely anxious. Well the drink also helps in losing weight which I was just thinking that was because you replace two meals with it. That wasn't it. People are losing large amounts of weight because something is in that drink that resembles speed. I was scared s**tless. I had my Ma take me to an urgent care to have my blood pressure and heart checked and possibly give me something for my anxiousness. The first urgent care didn't take my insurance for Christ's sake! I work for a well known hospital, but maybe it was because the urgent care was ran by another competing hospital. So we went to another urgent care and they said they didn't deal in cardiac issues. Huh? I know I'm not the only one coming in with a cardiac problem. I guess they couldn't even check my blood pressure or run an EKG either or give me something for anxiety. Whatever. My Ma gave me one if her ativans and I relaxed a little. The only thing I could do was go to the ER and I didn't feel it was exactly "ER appropriate" yet. I ended up having to take another half of an Ativan - from Ma- and symptoms started decreasing. It pisses me off because two urgent cares actually turned me away and said they wouldn't even try to help me. I'm a cardiac nurse for f'n sakes! My brother I know has went to urgent cares and got Xanax for an anxiety issue, but when I need something I can't get it. Thank God for my Ma. I'm feeling a little better now and I'm returning that drink right back to Amazon. I was scared especially since we have cardiac problems in the family.

What an unpleasant experience. Hope you're feeling OK now. One has to be so careful these days and I usually read the ingredients list before buying anything new. I also avoid artificial sweeteners and needless preservatives and colourants as much as possible.

I have a free day and there were two things I planned to do -- and I haven't been able to just go and do either of them. Not because of any real reason, just total inertia. I feel torn and not sure which one I should do. It's too late now. I used to do this one activity like clockwork on a strict routine. I changed my routine because someone was interrupting me in the activity, and I couldn't find a way to ask them not to. So I started going on different days -- but it has caused chaos for me. And now I'm all over the place and can't get it together.

Seriously, NT people, be careful that something you do isn't going to make a spectrum person feel they want to alter a routine in order to cope; that disruption, even though the person is instigating it themselves, can really start stuff that makes everything harder.

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I wonder what a thorough brushing of your plumage would do for your psyche.

I hope things go better for you tomorrow.

Ha, thanks kraftie! I have work tomorrow, so I know I have to force myself out of the house for that. And then I will be able to do the other stuff I didn't get to do today.

I do hate wasting a free day though. I've just felt that inertia thing so badly today.

Now, about that plumage session....

Another loud, drunken, racist rant from my dad. My head aches and I'm nauseated.

I used to be an adventurer like you, then I took a bruise in the knee!! !
It hurts.

The unbelievably poor reliability of China Post's website. It's almost impressive that a state run website manages to have such inexplicable downtimes. While I'm talking about Chinese websites, those awful Chinese numerical domain names that only a stenographer could possibly decipher make me pretty unhappy as well.

Tomorrow, the one day I'm not going to be home, I have a USPS package coming that requires a signature. The mailwoman is a rather disagreeable person who probably won't treat my fragile package with much delicacy, so I'll likely end up with a broken item when I pick it up on Friday, and have to pay for expensive international shipping again.

Oh, and I probably won't be able to pay my bills this month because of gouging optometrists.

I dropped the steak that I was cooking on the floor when I tried to turn it over. I'm so angry that I can't do anything for the day. I guess I'll have to keep eating until I feel too full to eat any more to calm myself down.

My cat, my best friend, died yesterday. I am so sad.