Fairfield wrote:
My online friend has been kind of ignoring me (or I'm just perceiving it as that, I dunno) since I first was honest about the issues I'm dealing with and it's giving me anxiety. I'm not going to let myself engage in bad behaviours to get attention from them, but it's making me really stressed out and depressed, and making me want to do stupid s**t.
I'm intimately familiar with that. You'll tire people with your shenanigans, you'll push them away. I know that's not helpful, but I'm speaking from experience of making that mistake. It can be very hard to keep your composure when you're having an anxiety attack and are suffering alone.