Why can't you just speak to me? We used to have such good communication, but now it's gone? What's with that? I still love you Jackie, despite everything you've done to be and how you've used me and left me. I don't think that's the real you though. I don't know what's wrong with you that you're behaving as you are right now, but that's not the Jackie I first married and I'd give anything in the universe for you to be who you were and come back home. I still love the lady I thought I married and I wish you were her again. I still love you Jackie and I'm still going to keep my vows. My ring is still on my finger and I am still yours even though right now you would give me up. I still love you. Sorry I'm complaining about you again, but that's freedom of speech. I've heard some of the things you've said about me behind my back and I could sue you for slander and libel, but I'm not, so please forgive me my honest complaints while I don't bother contacting CPS on your brother or taking you to court. I still love you, and I still am going to keep my vows even if I don't feel in love with you for a moment, I wish you would too. Love you Jackie, I do, and I wish you'd love me too. I know I can't change anything, that's up to you and God, but I wish you would love me again too. Love you Jackie anyway still.