Post something that made you UNHAPPY today.

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chest tightness getting better, but still there.

what was meant to be a quick 20 minute trip took about two hours. i went to the HS to check out the weekly flea market for any gamecube controllers. they decided not to set up shop today for some reason. everything was gone. i went to the art supply store for wire mesh and my bike tire got a flat on the way there so i had to walk it.

they didn't have any, walked the bike to the other art store, they also had none. then i walked home. 3 hour round trip only option for basic wire mesh.

nothing.

I just finished watching the film about murdered journalist Veronica Guerin. Very sad. RIP Veronica

that moment when people accused me for nothing even though I try to impress them.

God, I'm so pathetic... fml

I had a couple chores to do. I cleaned my guinea pig's cage & vacuumed. There's also some dirty dishes that are pilling up so I may wash them later.

Waiting for people.

The employment outcome for myself and other autistics in my community is not so great..

- Chronic headaches from what I presume is because I have taken an abstinence from caffeine.

- The growing suspicion that I am completely alienated from other human beings. Thankfully I can endure social isolation for extended period of times. It is what I am doing in these lonesome periods that's a concern.

- My face is now fat. In an attempt to conquer my saturnine mood, I have markedly increased my sugar intake by eating dark chocolate and Weight Watcher yoghurts. Although in terms of body mass I have not gained much weight, my face now looks considerably fuller than this time last week, which is an unwelcome consequence of the small tweak I made to my diet.

- Intrusive thoughts that continue to pervade around my simple mind.

Such as:

* How high/low my IQ is.
* Whether or not I will ever find employment as I feel like the most socially awkward human being alive. My chief sensory difficulty (sound) doesn't help in this regard either.
* The confusion surrounding my sexuality.
* Questioning whether or not I am a full-blown misanthropist because I feel so utterly incongruous amongst others.
* Why I am having trouble comprehending the very basics of English language.

- How high/low my IQ is.
- Whether or not I will ever find employment as I feel like the most socially awkward human being alive. My chief sensory difficulty (sound) doesn't help in this regard either.
- The confusion surrounding my sexuality.
- Questioning whether or not I am a full-blown misanthropist because I feel so utterly incongruous amongst others.[/quote]


JakeASD, we have similar difficulties in that I've always questioned my own iq levels be it actually high or abysmally low. 2nd, as it pertains to employment yes, I know that feeling for a great deal of my occupational life it's been a constant if not seemingly impossible cycle of low page/menial jobs..

Hopefully, your scenario will turn out to become better. I say this in a blatantly honest & sincere manner

Getting into an argument earlier today made me unhappy.

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Ya, I'm weird like that...

^ if you are talking about the one I saw, that made me unappy too.

I made queso and it was a disaster at every step. Even the decision to make it.

Bullying in the form of exclusion.
Makes me also sad to hear about it.

Not having all the greatest work skill sets..

Stupid bipolar brain chemistry is making me feel unhappy today, and completely disinterested in my usual hobbies. But it tends to turn around quickly, hopefully in a day or so.

I'm developing a cold. My mother nagging at me. And OCD.