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I still don't have any confirmation that I can speed up in college.

I have been mailing teachers since November and miss a few assignments since I got very unclear answers.
If I get rejected from the program I'll be so mad !

slow start to the day.

I had to get up early today & I got up early yesterday too. Also my girlfriend's sister is in the hospital with stomach pain.

Dealing with depression today, I overslept today and my thoughts seem extremely negative about everything but mostly past situations.

an incredibly unnerving tingling, wriggling feeling in my right eye.

nearly a month since i became very sensitive to eye problems. help me.

Mother.

Yesterday I was reminded how I have to rehearse whatever is on my mind and know how to say it in a way that won't upset or displease my own mother in any way before we go out together, but I can't predict everything she or anyone else says. When we are on our way to the mall I mentioned they're no longer having flea markets at the old Zellers/Target building near my apartment because they're turning it into something else. My mother said it's going to be a call center for telemarketers.

ANOTHER worthless building being constructed in this hick town! Not so long ago that shopping center was great because it had a variety of stores and places where I could buy different things and it was close enough to walk to. Then suddenly and for no real reason they decide to turn into a strip mall. The only two stores that are are still open and halfway-decent are Shopper's Drug Mart and Sobey's, the other outlets are are either untouched or full of crap. he closed up Zellers and turned it into Target and the store utterly failed and was closed in less time than it took to build it!

I told my mother I just wanted to move away. That I'm sick of having to walk several miles through rain and heat and snow and freezing cold just to go to a store I'm interested in, or pay a fortune on a cab. She said "Well I don't know what to tell you!" When we went to the food court I couldn't even think about what to order so she gave me twenty dollars so I could decide. I felt like I was on another planet and everything I was seeing and hearing came from somewhere a hundred miles away. I knew I had to force myself to calm down or my mother might take me straight back home and I'd get nothing like a naughty and spoiled rotten six-year-old. But I really didn't enjoy it and I've been feeling disgusting and sick and I hate my life. I'd like to see my own mother try to last a week without her Jeep, which she can use to drive any time to anywhere she wants. She wouldn't be able to go to work or even visit my grandmother. Unless you can drive a car and afford to even have one, you're a complete loser and you can't go anywhere because everything around here is that's semi-decent is just too FREAKING far away!!

Nothing.

eye redness, inundated by sh***y 4/20 memes, close friend upset, not muchy else.

was promised the car forthe morning the night before to run important errands and then it was taken away from me right when I woke up because apparently my errands aren't as important as his. was picked up 3 hours late from work because he drank too much beer and couldn't drive.

nothing.

My sister yelling at me because I was cleaning the shower earlier today.

I know it's cruel and horrible to say people with eating disorders are just stupid, but some of the stuff I just read on TV Tropes about "Misaimed Fandom" makes it seem like they are. For example there was once a PSA about anorexia that showed women where were thin and skeletal. It was supposed to show what a terrible disease it really is, but girls watching who are anorexic *wanted* to look like that. They thought the women in the PSA were perfect because they were skin and bones, and if *they* didn't look like skeletons, then they were fat and hideous, or so they thought. I guess if you're anorexic skeletons look amazing and beautiful while people at a healthy weight look like Jabba the Hut. I don't even want to know what they must think I look like.

and then there was the infamous "ipecac contest" on Family Guy. It was meant to show what a stupid, awful, potentially dangerous idea that was, but it ended up increasing ipecac use among teen bulimics.

What a stupid world we have the misfortune of being in.