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11 Oct 2015, 12:56 am

Why do you want to hurt me?



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11 Oct 2015, 1:40 am

I want to see a change in you, that I do not believe will ever happen, and it saddens me and disappoints me far more than you will ever know. However, in spite of this, or perhaps because of this, you win. You get everything you want out of this, and I get nothing. So, what more are you looking for here? Is it that in spite of everything, you still hope for my acceptance? I have searched my soul to do so, but the truth is, I cannot accept you are the person that you are. As time goes on I grow more accepting of these circumstances, but it does not lessen the disgust that I feel at seeing the way you treat other people, or upon thinking of the way you have treated me. I greatly dislike your behavior, your beliefs, and your choices in life. I have done my best to understand you, but I feel no closer to doing so now than ever. Whatever it is you are looking for, you will not find in me.



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11 Oct 2015, 3:46 pm

I made up my mind over 2 years ago that I wanted absolutely nothing more to do with that group, and (aside from a couple of exceptions, that I pretty quickly changed my mind about anyway) I cut all ties with anyone associated with it. I am not going to change my mind about this. Ever.



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11 Oct 2015, 3:58 pm

You would have to walk away from a lot of things in your life before I would even feel good about talking to you again, and I realize how unfair that is and how hard that would be for you. That's why this is at a complete impasse, and as far as I can tell it is unlikely to ever change.



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11 Oct 2015, 4:22 pm

Personally I wish I had never gotten involved in it. I was warned many times not to get involved. The gravitational pull of many different soulmate connections sucked me in, until ultimately the dynamic reversed and thankfully pushed me back out for good. Overall it was such a nasty, soul-sucking experience, there is nothing in it that I would go back for. Not even for you. I'm not sorry that I met you, but I do wish it had been under different circumstances.

From my perspective it is very much like recovering from a severe, life-threatening addiction, finally understanding that you can never touch that substance again, and watching someone you love continue to use it. A line has to be drawn. You stop hanging out with people who use or who might otherwise damage your recovery. It's so incredibly risky for me just to read your posts on that forum, and sometimes the things I see there really do set me back a lot. If I didn't care about you, I would just stay away. It would be easier if I didn't care.



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11 Oct 2015, 4:37 pm

If YOU don't care, then you have no reason to continue reading my posts here.



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11 Oct 2015, 4:53 pm

To just about every parent of an autistic kiddo I know, although not all:

I am sick and tired of listening to your stories of how hard life is for you. I am sick and tired of hearing how tired you are, but never accepting my invitations to take your kiddos out and take a break. I am sick and tired of you screaming at the top of your lungs to anyone who will listen that they should be called kids and adults with autism, because it is a disease and that calling them autistics is wrong. I am sick and tired of you complaining about your kid's tantrums, but then not listening to me or actually being offended when I have taken them out and I have zero problems with their behavior at all. I am sick and tired of you putting down your kids on social media or to anyone who will listen, so that they feel sorry for you, while not caring how it affects your child today and possibly in the future. I am sick and tired of keeping my mouth shut when you tell me how horrible your kid is, because you claim you need someone to listen, when in fact it is YOU who is nuts and driving the poor kid crazy. I am sick and tired of you expecting that everyone else accept your kid with the horrible disease of autism, as you call it, while not accepting them yourselves. I am sick and tired of you listening to some nut selling you all kinds of vitamins and supplements, who in some cases have made your sick have real medical issues, because to you it's easier to buy into that and have someone to feel sorry for you than actually attempting to help your kids. I am sick and tired of you complaining that your kid has no friends, yet everytime I have attempted to get our kids together so that they can develop friendships, you have no time for it. I am sick and tired of listening how my son is doing better because I am just lucky, when the fact is you have no idea how much I have had to change my views and my lifestyle in order to understand my child and help him be the best he can be as an autistic individual, not as what you or the rest of society think he needs to be. I am done. I am done with sending you posts, stories, videos, etc. to help you understand your kids, as you claim you have no time to dig up such stuff, but I do because I am just lucky, when the fact is you continue to do the opposite of what every autistic individual out there says you should do. I am done. The stress you have added to my life is not worth it. I love your children like none of those other sympathetic parents to YOUR own cause love them, but you can't see it because you don't care about anyone but yourselves. I pray that your kids make it out alive and not completely damaged by the time they are 18 and can escape the abuse that you have subjected them to all in the name of making them normal, so that you can have this perfect life and so that others will feel sorry for you. I am done. It's now about myself and autistics, not about you. Take a hike.



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11 Oct 2015, 9:05 pm

How can you be happy about something that hurts me so much?



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11 Oct 2015, 9:30 pm

I gave up what I loved most in the whole universe for you. Do you remember that?



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12 Oct 2015, 1:48 am

You were right.

I wonder where you are. Your hands must be free by now.

What had to happen is beginning to happen at last, and there’s no return.


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12 Oct 2015, 8:29 am

Do you post the nice songs for me, or for someone else?



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