Post something that made you UNHAPPY today.

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Realizing that a lot of the things I experienced in childhood were not normal.

Realizing that my mom has been lying to me.

Realizing that my family is not as good as I thought.

Realizing that a lot of people were not as good as I thought.

Realizing that my family is torn and people no longer trust each other.

Remembering things which I did not want to remember.

Realizing that I could have gotten help sooner.

Realizing that I do not trust some people anymore.

I don't understand. Why can't people just get along?

That is a great deal of realizations Lillikoi. I'll admit there are things from my ancient past never existed or transpired but, such did. Still, hope that you'll be able to find some serenity within all of this chaos.

Earlier today,I was driving on a highway on-ramp, and there was a lot of traffic. Not knowing the other side will turn green immediately, I accidentally blocked the interchange. The car on the other side goes really close to my car, revs up his engine, and honks on his horn for 20 seconds and yells "move out of the way as*hole". It got me shoken up and I felt like taking my anger out on other drivers, but I resisted the behavior with the help of pep talk to myself.

I didn't sleep well last night. I woke up after afew hours needing to pee & I had a very hard time sleeping after that. I went for a walk today & felt kinda worn out so I didn't walk as far as usual. I think not sleeping well or enough messed me up. Also my throat is bothering me alittle. It was scratchy before I drank some cough syrup & my voice has been hoarse. I'm not sure why it's bothering me cuz my allergies haven't been bothering me today.

Winter is over and we'll be back to the stinking hot weather again

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I am now realising that I was overzealous when I decided to move out of my mother's house. Where I am living right now is an utter dive and the people in this town are terribly profane, unclean and debauched. It's making me feel even more depressed. I know I should be grateful for the opportunity to be more independent, but it's difficult when everyone nearby is repulsing me. Dover must be one of the worst places to live in Kent, a county which is renowned for its beautiful landscapes.

Work, my boss, idiot coworkers, and lack of structure. Just an ornery f#$%ing night.

Now the negative; The oil filter was screwed in WAAAY too tight by the dealer. So my car had to sit there with no oil in it overnight until I could get the proper filter wrench tool from Autobarn/Supercheap. $50 of wasted cash later and I finally buy one that works

Thankfully next time I only have to buy the oil & filter and not the whole kit needed to get the job done DIY.

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Someone on this site posted a link to some so-called science newsletter article saying that 92% of horrible murderers and serial killer`s ``suffer`` from Asperger`s.

Once again I have been reminded that all WP is really good for is making me feel miserable and depressed and reminding me that the whole world hates us, dehumanizes generalizes us and wants us dead. It`s like when the Americans nuked Japan in WW2 and they saw the Japanese as being the ``enemy``, calling them things like rats and racial slurs, when most of the thousands of people who were horrifically killed and injured and poisoned in the bombing were just regular men, women and children going about their business. I guess it won`t be long before a bunch a so-called heroes will do something just as horrible to us. They don`t see the positive things about our personalities, or our talents or skills, they see us as either cold-blooded killers or worthless lumps of flesh that cause nothing but sorrow and frustration to our parents.

I hate the human race, HATE IT!! Anyway, my parents have invited me to the go to the Wildlife Park tomorrow. Mom and Dad should be really be careful, because there are a lot of secluded wooded places there where I could so easily murder them. (sarcasm)

Yes, I have seen such articles on the internet from time to time often when there has been a mass murder event where the murderer in question was either autistic or speculated to be autistic.I'll be honest when I was in school I recall someone make the remark that I exhibited all the qualities of a psychopath. However, I tend to have more of law abiding mentality whereby, I'd rather put the baddies behind the bars not be one of said persons.

I had a bowl movement & bled. It's a good thing I have a doc appointment on Wednesday.

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I think I had food poisoning last night cuz I vomited a couple times shortly after eating supper. I had a ham sandwich & the ham had been in the frig a while. I feel OK today so that's good.