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My mother thinking I don't know how to cook. I took culinary arts at school!

Got into a very public argument with someone in which I said and did some things I strongly regret. That and it looks like I have carpal tunnel in my right hand too.

I woke up this morning to find my fish dead; although, he was unwell for a few weeks, so now he can rest in peace.

had big long stressful conversation with employment counselors
who nice as they were, had to semi-interrogate me in order to work out a plan of action
regarding employment and other employment services that look after my living costs
very stressful. also due to long life history of negative stuff that has happened to me
since birth really, was stressful to try and explain how i was feeling etc.

but never mind, shouldn't ruminate as apparently makes things worse
but at the same time shouldn't try and push things out either

just try and absorb myself in positive activities that help me let go...

the brit neo-nazi's getting branded as terrorist made me a bit happier
as they now can be put in prison for even wearing their badges and tattoo's...

much happier on that account

Social communication is horrible as usually, thinking about never speaking again.

Except that was technically yesterday, its 3:41 AM here.

Just got done pulling an all nighter on some projects and basically goofing around a console, compiling programs I'll probably never use

sensory overload.

I was on Commercials I Hate!, and there was one person complaining about the ads for Shriner's Hospital where they show amputee kids being all happy and stuff. The individual said they should be should really be showing what a terrible burden they are for their parents, and how their lives are always going to be hard.

I thought it was absolutely disgusting. Most of us aspies have all our arms and legs, but the media is constantly showing that we are nothing but a burden on our families and society and that we're all better off dead. We're never shown in a good or positive light. So I'd hate to hear what this person thinks about us if they can't stand the sight of physically disabled kids.

Maybe they're the ones who are right all along. Maybe we shouldn't be allowed to exist, we should all be burned in a pit. I'm so tired of fighting this losing battle against hate and misconceptions and judgement.

My girlfriend had a package that was scheduled to come in today by UPS. She had some places to go with her mom today so I had to get up early to wait. It didn't come in. She checked the tracking after she got back & it said there was a delay probably because of the snow last night. She didn't get an email from them that there was a delay & it doesn't say when it will come in. I might have to get up early tomorrow to wait for it to.
I also have an upset stomach today.

WP keeps booting me.

I fell on the ice.

Almost a daily occurrence... but today was exceptional.

The idiots I work for are aware of what is wrong with me, but they make absolutely no accommodations for me, but in general what they are doing is bull feces. Want to be a software dev house, but we don't even know what Agile means.

Small company, and I am the only one who is proficient in C. They expect me to port encryption they somehow pieced together in Java, into C, in like a morning... are they freaking mad!

I didn't turn Skype on today, when I got home I see he was already nagging me by 10AM "How far are you?"

I've just been dead tired all day. I am quite a severe insomniac - my body clock is such a state I am not an iota sleepy well into the early hours. Presently zombified, and using the screen on my laptop to wake my brain up. Many tasks to accomplish. Zero tasks completed. Or even attempted.

Today felt awkward because of my family. They weren't happy with each other because of a decision and something that was said, and there were a few times where it was hard to know where to look.

Then I started feeling alone (which I can't really remember feeling before now) and like no one will ever understand me, even if they say they do.

sore today

Dear, I always have very bad timing...