When we started talking more, I was very happy, and like I told you I had never been happy like that before. What made me happy was that you would initiate things, you reciprocated, you wrote to me, you called me, things were progressing and just seemed to flow back and forth in a natural way. But I felt like I was getting a lot of mixed signals, and I have a hard enough time interpreting direct signals. You were posting a lot of songs and I didn't understand what they all meant. It was really confusing. Then the more I asked you to directly communicate with me and explain things, the more you freaked out, shut down, pulled away. Not much has changed, you're still posting lots of songs, and I don't know what they are supposed to mean, if they are supposed to mean anything, or if they are even meant for me anymore, or for other people or meant as a message for anyone at all. And even if I do feel pretty sure that you're posting one as a message for me, how do I know that you're not just doing it so you can watch my reaction and laugh about it? I think it is fantastic to be able to communicate with music as a parallel to having actual conversations, it is beautiful sometimes, but as a primary means of communication this just sucks.