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I'm already dead inside

Necessity meant my usual Saturday routine fell through today, so no going to the cafe in town for my soya chai latte... I love that drink; the girls there make the best one in the whole area and I'm ashamed to say it's the highlight of my week. :/

All I have done from yesterday afternoon to today is do laundry, put away laundry, and go shopping.

sh***y relative poked me in the stomach and said "You're getting a bit of a tummy! That's so usual for you!"
Yeah, thanks. I already felt quite crap about this enough without your involvement.
And I thought it was even shittier as they know I put on weight a few years ago due to medications to manage a health condition I almost died from. Making fun of a side effect gained from a near-fatal condition just to make me feel bad about myself is an example of the reason why I never want to see any of my relatives again if I had my way, but I'm obligatorily stuck to them for all time.
I am not overweight in the medically accepted meaning of the term. It is just fat pockets put on in weird places due to the medication I was on that have been very hard to shift. I don't even have to be obese or even technically overweight for them to start harassing me about my weight.

My team are still in the Championship.

I heard several gunshots down the street from my house, this morning----and, considering 7 people got shot, yesterday, alone (3 died), and that as of May 1st, there have already been more than 100 homicides, this year----it really saddens me that so many people are shooting / getting shot / violently dying, in my town.

Stomach problems have been making me feel terrible since the weekend; all I want to do is sleep, but I have got to get things done, somehow.

My favourite online game won't work. But that is irrelevant compared to the stuff some of you guys are going through. I hope it all works out for you.

Another person has died, now, from the Saturday shootings.....

Some troll on this site (who I think may now be banned) calling me all kinds of names and saying I have a low I.Q. just for saying why I think it's wrong to NOT spay or neuter pets. Not just me though, they said nasty things and personally attacked anyone else who believed the same thing). This is why I should never go on the Religion and Philosophy forum.

As if what they said would change my feelings about why some humans should be neutered. If anything it makes me believe in it even more.

today, the e-mail said the instructor cancelled aikido. aikido is @ the university & the university is on finals week.

obsessing over social rejections and failures from the distant past

(Heavy sigh) I'm in my bedroom watching TV on my computer because I'm trying to keep things calm for Waldo who I had to send to his room without any food because he's throwing up again so much that it's a barf fest if I let him out to the livingroom. Nothing new, he does this whenever I go to work or go out to do anything like any normal person would. Waldo has separation anxiety so bad that when I'm gone for awhile he'll have dry heaves so bad that he throws up blood. I don't know what to do about it except take him to the vet for some anxiety medication, but he gets even worse if I take him out of the house. I had a vet come to the house a long time ago so I may look into that. I also thought about a behaviorist. I have to go to a long meeting tomorrow night. I get so tired of this. I can't even have a normal life, but I'd never get rid of Sweetness (Waldo's pet name).

Didn't so much make me sad as downright angry. I read that Los Angeles International Airport have constructed a special check in desk for celebrities only so that they don't have to mix with the general public.

Who the funk do they think they are?