Yeah well, I guess it's because I've never participated consistently in any actual group gatherings, I'll go once but that's it.
I don't trust groups or people that just accepts me like that, like what gives..
And I too am an as*hole I made another post about it.. but I am that way because I'm so uncomfortable every second of my life,
My life is filled with constantly doing things to make me comfortable, and OK never thriving just OK.. the cleaning, teh checking, the counting, the fretting, the washing, the avoiding, the scratching, the hitting, the rubbing, the daydreaming, the wandering et al.
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The guardhouse sits just on the moons lap like a dying child.
She whispers in the greyest of grey voice. "hush my child, hear now this is the antithesis of the end".