What is Your opinions of Your Self ?

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I think I've not developed my "self" as much as I've developed an idealized self that NEEDS to do certain things in order to survive (like get a good job and make lots of good products)...

It's horribly broken, I know, but I don't know yet how to fix it.

Open-minded, direct, jaded.

I think I am a horrible person thats capable of making just about any mistake. I am selfish, nothing redeemable here. I am the worse person you could meet.

my 'self' is a different person to who i am
I like 'me' better than i like my 'self'.

I'm too anxious and a worrywart and I don't ever think I have enough time for fun anymore. In fact, I was just writing out my schedule for the next two weeks and I feel another stress headache coming on. I'm rambling, but I was listening to Glynis the number lady and my birthday is May 11 so the #11 is a master number and I'm supposed to master everything I do. However, she said that people with a master number never are able to relax and enjoy life - that's me. I can't even sit down to relax and knit or watch a tv show because I feel like there is always something that I should be doing. I took today off from homework because all freaking week homework is all I did and I needed to go to the store, wash the car and watch a couple shows on tv with Waldo since it is his birthday this month. Now I'm kicking myself in the butt after looking over what I have to do next week - I just let a good day go to waste when I could have had my groceries delivered and then knocked out a couple of assignments. It is true - life is passing me by and come to think of it, I haven't really been happy for over 5 yrs or more because I really can't remember the last time I was happy. I do try to stay positive and thank God for everything I have. At the same time, I really don't have time to spend with friends or my Ma when school is going on. School is my problem, but I also want to get ahead and the school I'm taking right now is pretty much mandatory. I will just have to decide if I want to go on after I receive this degree.

Too many contradictory opinions. Too many neutral opinions.
Either I'm more or less apathetic about myself, or this self doesn't truly exists in a clear sense.

Either way, just 'fine' in norm standard.
Odd? Yes. Broken? No. An idiot? That's up to you.
Vices? None. Yes yes, I'm 'boring/innocent/missing out' but I don't caree..
Can I party? That depends. Have fun? Who knows what defines 'fun'? I could either make an entire crowd crazy or laugh at myself alone.
Friends? Some. And knows me well enough.
School/job? Done and I don't like honors. Exploring the real world? I take things slow... But I wanna go out!
Lovelife? Doesn't appeal. And I don't care!! I don't care opinions like being a 'virgin/prude/lonely'. I would rather take care of my mom.
Past? Nothing tragic, nothing good either. My worst years? Probably a 'nothing'!
Morality? Too strict. Makes me indecisive. Needs some changes! Conscience? Ditto.
Hobby? Uhh.... Crafting. And people likes it.
Judging? I only judge myself as much as I could only take advantage of no one but myself.
Sincerity? In a tug of war!!

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I perceive myself as extremely useless and nonfunctional. Which annoys me as I am physically fit enough now, I am intelligent enough and cognitively capable - I just cannot interact with the system. Whenever I try to do anything, it never works out for all sorts of systemised reasons.

Pros:: Optimistic, Caring, Industrious, Adventurous, Tolerant

Cons: Awkward, Self-conscious, Analytical, Suspicious, Fearful

pros: intelligent, driven, creative, attractive
cons: lonely, scared, I have a lot of contempt for others

insane: permanently separated from everything and everyone else, like there's glass between us. Not sure if that's a pro or con; it makes me sad but in a kind of peaceful way, like nothing matters because it isn't real.

I'm alright. I recently let go of something that was causing me not to enjoy my life and ever since then my normal personality is back.

Sometimes I try to plan every single thing about my future. It drives me nuts so I'm slowly learning how to enjoy every single day without being a control freak.

Otherwise, I'm doing the best I can.

I unfortunately see myself physically as just an overweight person with bad skin.
Personality wise, I see myself as someone who is shy and insecure, but caring and curious.

I wouldn't say I'm a good person. I'm too nice, at least most of the time. Things hurt me easily, so I try to please everyone, but when I make one small mistake, people get angry and it hurts me and I cry too much. I just want to be myself, but people say that I'm not always socially acceptable, which makes me self-conscious, always fearing what other people think of me. And sometimes I act too much based on my emotions rather than logic, which leads to me being unintentionally rude and selfish, which I hate.

In my mind, I live in two diffrent worlds. One is this one, and the other one is a wonderful place where anything can happen. There, I'm a beautiful and powerful Pokemon trainer that is completely adorable on the side and here... I'm just plain and boring. Trust me, if I diddn't pretend to be my fairy princess pokemon master self, I'd probably bore you all to death.


Then again, maybe me and the other me aren't that diffrent after all...

Kind, loving, caring - Sometimes. Obsessed, moody and always horny.

I guess you could sum up my life with a guy just trying to get as many experiances in my life as possible, sometimes I love feeling pain. Othertimes I am a big baby

For me this whole time I have been here has been difficult. Navigating the social world seems to be my biggest shortcoming if I have one, it may make or break me and only time will tell.

I'm a walking bomb that could not only explode at any given moment but will take at least a dozen people with me, and none of my so-called positive traits or talents make up for that.