I confess.....

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I confess that my back itches.

I confess that I'm sad now

I confess WP is making me fat...has made me fat...is making me fatter.

I confess I am awake early for a change, even the clocks going back to GMT has helped that, lol

I confess that in an indeed rare moment, I actually cried in the final episode of Season 3 of the revived series of Doctor Who ("Last of the Time Lords").

I confess I really like making and eating porridge, even though it means I have to clean the microwave afterwards when it overflows half the time.

I confess work is going to be hell for me tomorrow

I confess I don't understand my drastic changes from calm to anxious to calm again and back to anxious...

I confess that I have sat in the same spot nearly all day, only getting up to make drinks/food, vacuum the stairs and landing, use the "little boy's room", and change the sky box over as needed so I could watch the programme on the LCD TV in the kitchen

im going to bed and feel like sh-t. hopefully i'll wake up tomorrow in a better mood, so i can go to the sporstcard shop and take pictures

I confess: I am furious, and have been since Friday night.

I confess I am an idiot

I confess that I am really pissed off right now. Partially at myself, but mostly at some other people. I had all but stopped interacting with an online friend, because some people thought the age difference was inappropriate and suggested I had ulterior motives. I even deleted playful banter posts so people would stop saying those things. Now, I will never be able to speak to her again. She was a great person and deserved better. We all miss her so much. I know it wouldn't have made a difference in the end, but I wish I had continued to talk to her directly the past six weeks. I should not have let other people and their misconceptions impact me that way.

Humans will never miss a chance to pass judgment on things they know nothing about…

I confess, I was in a not entirely dissimilar boat a while back. In my case, one of the very first people I made friends with here on the WP turned out to be in her mid-late teens. I did not realize this at the time; and even when I did, I thought little of it. But one day, it suddenly smacked me in the head like a cricket bat that I was befriending a teenage girl online. My intentions were not at all bad; I liked her because she had some mental peculiarities (beyond AS) that reminded me very much of myself, and I wanted to talk to her about them; I also just liked her, the way she wrote, her attitude, how she dealt with her struggles. But when the cricket bat hit me, literally spent 3 days angsting over how the hell to correspond with a teenage girl and not have people judge or presume weirdness. What would her parents think, for example, that she has an online friend who’s 34? Instant assumption of pedophilia? I know not, bit I did worry about it. I had strange visions of John Walsh coming and knocking on my door asking me what the hell I think I’m doing befriending a teenaged girl online. (In the visions I just shot him, of course.) But it was a spooky thing to consider.

I finally just asked her about it, what the hell to do, what the ground rules were, etc., how we could be friends but still made sure she felt safe and such. And she was very open minded about the whole thing. It helped that she has a boyfriend who she’s very fond of; I’m sure if I did anything creepy, he’d come stomp me. I also imposed a 5-year moratorium on potentially meeting her (which would put her in her early 20’s), and suggested that she should bring her boyfriend along (who is actually someone I’ve come to like and respect, despite the fact that he’s a rather odd fellow [welcome to the club!]). And time has born me out; we don’t write that much anymore, I think largely because both of us are much more busy now than we were over the summer.

I’m sorry for your part; it sounds like something wonderful was wrecked with no good cause. Such is the world in which we live. For my own part, I try not to judge people on such things. I suspect that aspies are much more open minded about age differentials, both in friendships and in romantic relationships (well, some of them. Mabye?). I know of several here who have friendships with large age differentials (including myself). I also know of a few who have romantic relationships with unconvensional age differentials. And I’ve heard accusations of pedophilia toss around more than once; it seems to be a default assumption in this day and age (which is why I was initially terrified of being friends with a teenage girl). For my own part, for all of it, I just mark it down as “not my business”, and think less of nobody for it. Really, don’t we have enough to worry about?

Good fortune,

- Icarus has a get out of jailbait free card around here somewhere…

(This is not pertinent to this discussion; just an image that amuses me.)

I confess that Monopoly is my favourite game, and it has to be the original.

I confess that I want to get a (Nintendo) Wii for Christmas, because I want to play Resident Evil 4 Wii Edition and Resident Evil: Umbrella Chronicles.

I confess that it was my birthday.