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Sorted through some old photographs with my family, since all of us were home today. It's amazing how much has changed since the 90s and even the 00s.

And yet, it's equally amazing how much has stayed the same - there are several photographs of me with my old Pokemon stuff, like my Charmander shirt, my Gameboy Color, and a Pokemon magazine. Oh and one old picture of me as a youngster (I was lying in a bed with Barney sheets) with a hoard of stuffed toys behind me.

^^You are a beautiful, cherished child of the universe. There is no failure.

^When I was really little, only a year old, mum or dad took a picture of me surrounded by all of the teddy bears they had picked up or were gifts.

Didn't make it to the movie, but I still had a great day Now I'm thinking of buying a Nintendo 3DS, because I have wanted one for quite some time and I really want to play some of the games for it.

^Could I make some suggestions?

I don't know how fragile (or dangerous) am I at this state...

All I know is that this is different from physical and/or mental exhaustion. I could definitely resist the former, the latter would put immediate effect.
But this state drags my functioning down instead, affecting both. It's like being sick, but I'm still physically healthy and I still could think. Only less controlled and more vulnerable.

It's no wonder why it's easily mistaken for something else. It's not easy to isolate this state from another.
And I still wonder why fragmentation hasn't occurred to me as of yet. Maybe I've been subconsciously resisting it, maybe it just takes more than that to reach that point, maybe I'm not letting something go yet.


Still, what certain is that -- I won't have a real break until around the end of the week. Therefore, I will have to put up with this for another 4-5 days. Hopefully.

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I have nothing to do, and I'm really bored, and I feel like crap, and I feel like I have no talent.

... Or maybe I'm just hungry.

^Me too.

Lillikoi, is eating an option for you right now?

If I shipped Kiki and Lychee, would that be gay...?


Or...

I don't know!

Well, came close to falling off the wagon by wanting to drink a glass of wine, instead went to bed. Woke up and got a message from Mary saying that our drunk neighbor (Biatch) came down knocking on everyone's door saying she needed help - couldn't breathe and kept vomiting. Mary said she was in hysterics talking about a fight her and her daughter had a few days ago when she called the cops on her daughter for "stealing" her car while she was asleep. TRANSLATION: Her daughter came to borrow her car when she was passed out from drinking too much. So now she was feeling remorse for calling the police on her daughter.TRANSLATION: She was feeling sorry for herself which lead to her drinking too much which then lead to her throwing up continuously and having a panic attack and thus a hard time breathing. Lord help us.

Mary finally had to call an ambulance leading to several cops showing up along with the ambulance and two firetrucks. What a drama. I told Mary that we should write a book about all the crap that goes on in this place - I'd call it "The Condoplex Cuckoo 's".

Needless to say, I left the wine alone and ended up getting some flowering teas - caffeine free and drama free.

^ Ha, as awful as it sounds, there's sometimes nothing like another alcie falling way off the rails to make you re-think that step off the proverbial deep end yourself. I do hope your neighbour wakes up to herself sooner rather than later though.
I am thinking about the dead frog I found at my last job today. I had thought it was a plastic one, but it wasn't - it was all dried out and I found it on the floor. I picked it up and showed it to my employer, who said it probably came inside and then couldn't get back out, and there was no moisture in there so it died. She had a stray frog in her bathroom the week before, but as she found it and put it back outdoors, hopefully it lived.