Telling me to be more mindful when it comes to hygiene?
Well, at least you told me in a sense that I'd truly understood enough that I'd take it.
Telling me how one should act?
At least you told me what it means and why is that. If only you know that I'm still confused with several parts of it.
But telling me to suppress what I feel, and force me to smile because of it?
Please. You do NOT know what are you trying to ask of me.
You don't know what you want except this so-called 'vibes'.
And insisting that I'd do all of the above, and declare that I'm 'high functioning'?
After all those times, do you realize what are you trying to do? Do you even know what you're doing? Yes, I'm disobeying you simply because you don't know what you're doing. You do not know the consequences of your request, and you are risking me into a path I vow not to go to.
Heck, I'm not even meant to be verbal! And here you are, claiming to know who I'm.
You don't even know who I truly am, and what I could truly do because I trust no one.
I highly doubt you'd understand, despite the knowledge.
I tell you everything, you'd disregard it. Therefore, what's the point of telling you the truth? You're still no different from everyone I know when it comes to that.
Are you truly aware of all of this? Either you lose sight of your true goal, or you never truly have that goal to begin with.
But ah, what do I know? And what do you know?
Lastly... If you'd tell me, even just once, that you did all of this either because you want to empower me simply because you did, or worse, out of love? I WILL DESTROY YOU. 