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I haven't been back to visit again yet, but I'm hoping he's okay -- my next visit will probably be Tuesday; fingers crossed he is not only okay but still there, even!

He and his partner swan had only just flown back in; I hope that incident hasn't made them leave again since.

Something that's making me unhappy tonight. . .I'm freezing! I feel really chilly in my apartment. But I don't want to turn the heat on because I'm living on so little money these days due to depression forcing me to decrease my work schedule, that I just cannot afford to run the heat.

I feel miserable in the cold, especially when it's indoors and not even the outside!

^^ I'm on a reduced income too (retired early - no regrets, yet) and can relate. I've spent a few evenings this week wrapped up in 2 - 3 fleece throws that I found very cheap at the drugstore, of all places. (And I do mean wrapped!) Warm and easy to layer, no worries about fitting over whatever I'm wearing at the time.

Not just me feeling it, either: my cats are burrowing under the comforter to sleep. So cute.

"Winter is coming."

Another bout of depression.

I'm going to have to get out and do some exterior painting (touchup only thank God) soon today because there's rain in the forecast for tomorrow. (I'm just spoiled. Now that I'm retired and free from deadlines, I hate feeling driven. [/pity party])

This is one of the things I suck at most: things like "exterior painting" and other such household things.

Ooo, I never said I was *good* at it. But I'm slowly becoming tolerable with practice. It's a lot less expensive to botch it myself - and fix it on the next round - than to pay someone else to botch it, and then worry if it'll ever be fixed

And on that note I'd better scramble!

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Awkward conversations.

Today is a BAD day, it’s sooooooo hot & I’m coughing, I’m very overwhelmed, I feel like I’m going soooo crazy, cuz I’m on overload, I feel like there an emergency button inside me that is going off.

Bad weather.

Forcing myself up early each morning to thrash my sleep pattern into some semblance of order has some interesting, albeit frustrating, side-effects. It grates that I could easily keep awake all day long after all-nighters in my teens, but this doesn't seem to be feasible anymore. To the detriment of my neck muscles, I keep falling asleep at my desk.

The little kitten is sick.

My mother and I went out for supper, but this other family had an infant that would not stop screeching. I'm trying to ignore it while my mother asks me what I wanted to order but I can't think because both the baby is loud and the music is too loud so I ended up saying "I want...I want that baby to STOP!" And then I got up and walked out of the restaurant. Then my mother and I go back to the jeep where she starts telling me what I *could* have done. I *could* have calmly told her the baby was triggering me and could we please leave. But I told her I just couldn't think and I'm sorry I can't live up to her expectations i.e. acting like a perfectly normal NT who isn't anxious or depressed about anything or everything, except I didn't explain the i.e. part. And then she claims it's not about me living up to her expectations.

Then I guess it's about living up to my own, then. And they are just as abnormally high for me as they are for other people.

We ended up getting take-out at KFC instead of the really good pizza I wanted to get but couldn't last week because I was sick. I was stuck inside most of the week because of it. And then I finally get to go out and I'm ready to strangle babies (not really). My mother should at least be glad I removed myself from the situation before I did something physically violent.

I only got a couple hours of sleep Monday morning because I wanted to be up when maintenance came. Noone came so I got up early for nothing. I took a nap for an hour or so but I think I woke up because my girlfriend called her parents downstairs while I was sleeping upstairs & she talks pretty loud on the phone sometimes. She was also having to fuss at the pets. I had an appointment this morning too & I went to bed late so I only got a couple hours of sleep again. We were hoping that someone would come while we were gone to work on the fridge but noone came. I called property management alittle while ago & someone is supposed to come between 10 & noon tomorrow. The guy on the phone gave me a name & it might be the guy who came Friday. I'm not sure if it's the same name or not. I really hope it's not him because he yelled at me on the phone for not calling him Thursday night when we noticed before bed which was 4 in the morning. He said how it wouldn't be fixed till after the weekend because I waited but apparently it wouldn't of f#cking mattered when I called since it's Tuesday afternoon & noone came over yet. My girlfriend says the Vermont state law allows us to deduct rent for certain expenses like replacing our food but I'm not sure if we should call property management 1st or not to explain the situation instead of just mailing a note instead of mailing her portion of the rent which is between $90 & a $100(her Section 8 pays most of her rent). I think she shouldn't pay it for two months. I did call my parents & mom asked how her & dad could help & I told her there isn't much they can do in Louisiana which is true but I'm still hoping they would mail us a check on their own cuz me & Cass could really use some extra $$$

My rent just went up.

I'm getting tired of seeing really self righteous, judgemental Tweets by so-called spiritual people. Those ones who post "inspirational" quotes and pictures of lovely landscapes or sunrises, then basically inform you you have a bad attitude if you're not all bunnies and sunshine every waking moment. Puke.