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my name as it appears on by birth certificate is "f****n' chicken"

I'm Michael Scott if he were Canadian except more intelligent and less charismatic. Oh, and non-white.

This is my 8,000th post.

The dirtiest trick ever played on me was played by my own mother when she named me. I finally changed it in 1981.

I'm hoping to trade my debug playstation console for a net yaroze when I finish fixing it up.

I've tried countless meds, CBT, ECT, and TMS and still have depression symptoms.

Like my girlfriend, I have epilepsy but a more severe version.

really, TMS didn't work?!? that was my one hope for my youngest brother and middle brother AND myself! wth.
i thought it was guaranteed to work... from the books i read on helping treat depression, TMS was given as a sort of miracle cure.

also, ECT, you're so brave. i read about it in an actress carrie fisher's book (i read all her books i think), she wrote that she lost huge chunks of memory, but it's worth it to not commit suicide.

maybe a huge portion of your depression isn't to do with you at all, but because of something society lacked in and failed you in. for example i am already noticing people, school policies etc, excluding my elder son from basic human interaction, parties, etc. The school doesn't even give the special needs kids RECESS!! !! I was ranting about it the other day on my Fb as I have been after them for 3 yrs to give him recess and had to sneak around behind their backs to let him participate by taking him out of class early, then begging the normal kids' teacher to let him join, and i'd be his caretaker for that time. she would let me but always say it was a big risk for her job ( if someone noticed and mentioned it to the office)...


also, to add, MOST of the little kids would accept and include him, even if he just wanted brief acknowledgement as he just soaked up the atmosphere and ran around joyously, they would still try to understand him and accept him and include him.
I.E. if he had been included from that young age as a regular consistent thing, those 'normal kids' would grow up understanding and knowing his wants and some of his needs, while he would get enough of the social interaction and acceptance that he craved. The ADULTS separate them for no good reason,. they cant even say there arent enough volunteers or teacher's assistants to be his caretaker during recess outside, because there are PLENTY. more than there are special needs kids, there are assistants and volunteers!! !

my point is maybe (i.e. definitely) things that we SHOULD and can and must do to include autistic people (among others) and support them (which can be a LOT of needs), have been lacking since their childhoods, and it all adds up. depression would be a natural response. you can't cure the world of obliviousness or downright bigotry or neglect, as quickly as it takes a Dr to prescribe yet another treatment...

I unknowingly conditioned myself not to cough, because as a kid I didn't like the loud noise or how it made people turn and look at me so I'd try as hard as I could not to do it, and now I almost never cough reflexively.

Instead of gagging when I get a strep test, my instinct is to grab the swab and yank it out of my mouth. I do this just as reflexively as other people gag, I have to literally sit on my hands to keep from doing it.

TMS did help. My depression is not as bad, and I no longer am suicidal or having issues with self-harm. But the depression is still there. ECT did nothing but mess up my memory.

I'm sorry you're having such a problem getting your son to be included in things like recess. I agree, it really only hurts the kids to be so separated from many of their peers.

In my case, I think a lot of the depression comes from beliefs I had instilled in me in childhood. I was diagnosed with Asperger's syndrome in fourth grade, but neither my parents nor I really understood what that meant until I was fourteen or so. I grew up being told I just wasn't trying hard enough or didn't care or just didn't want to do things when I couldn't meet NT expectations despite trying my hardest - basically being told that my best wasn't good enough.

i see, how awful, even WITH a diagnosis, you were being blamed completely! imagine! and here i was feeling jealous of people who managed to get a diagnosis as kids.


im glad it did help then. TMS was used on john elder robison as a treatment for the social impairment part of autism, and it worked lasted about 2 to 4 weeks for him, if i remember correctly.

however he said it was then, when he became more socially aware, that he realized his wife did not like being with him anymore.

that realization caused them to divorce. before, he had been almost oblivious to her actual feelings.

his ex wife is now best friends with his new wife though. no hard feelings.

the TMS was targeting the areas that are less active in autism, to stimulate those areas, for socializing.

i wonder when that will launch as a treatment available to everyone not just research volunteers, just as TMS is available now for depression. i wish they would find a way to treat executive functioning issues too, with TMs, that's the worst thing for me.

I would like to be able to participate in PPR more, but a lot of people's posts either contain words that are too technical for me to understand or are too long for me to read comfortably. Probably because I didn't finish high school and am a bit dumb.

Dumb or just not well equipped in terms of vocabulary? I'd be happy to help 'translate' posts to be easier to read and understand.

Unrelated:
The truth is I'm more of a Marxist-Lennonist than a Marxist-Leninist

No matter how much I read about them and understand their importance in a wide variety of ecosystems, I can’t stop being really grossed out by worms. I think snakes are cool, though.

i'm the exact opposite. i always thought worms were 'darling' and lovely.

and one of my brothers (or was it a cousin?) sprinkling salt on them when we were kids.! horrific.

snakes have the same look in their eyes as 2 bad people i mention too much. same with iguanas, who even have the same way of walking as that man.

What about turtles?

I love turtles. I rescued one from a busy road a couple of years ago. It had orange eyes. So cool!