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At my current age posting this message I have roughly slept 14 years of my total life span thus far.

I’m very vain and obsessed with putting on makeup and wearing put together outfits.

I have a lump at the base of my neck on the right side that my doctor said is a cluster of swollen lymph nodes. I had several tests to make sure it wasn’t lymphoma or anything, and it appears to just be something my body did just because it could. It turned up I think at least two years ago and has stayed the same ever since.

It seems I have two main speaking patterns:

One that concentrates in words and meaning, primarily 'patterns' English, and non-social contexts.
It's where I'd get English pronunciations right, able to control my speech patterns and accents with.
With enough practice, I might able to voice act with this.
Whenever I'm using this 'mode' of language, the tension is at the back of my head.

The other one focuses on speaking, and is dominated by my native language and thinking -- which happened to be socially favored.
With this, I'd end up speaking accented English and able to speak in native on semi-auto.
The accent mixed in English is... No different from those who speaks the same native language as I do. But still out of place from where I grew up, with poor voice modulation and even poorer repetition of words -- not recommended for singing.
Whenever this mode of language 'happens', the tension is somewhere at the front of my head.


I wonder if it's the same with others, or if they can notice it and able to tell the difference...

But from what I can notice was that people's speech don't always reflect their singing.

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I strongly believe in labels.

I have a sporadic muscle tic in my right leg.

When I go to bed, I have to find just the right position for my feet (and it isn’t the same position every night), or either I stim with my feet and the motion keeps me up, or it takes enough mental effort to not stim that I can’t sleep.

I refuse to acknowledge or use the country name 'United Kingdom' or 'UK'. I always refer to it as Britain because it is not united at all but a horrible divided nation.

I look like if R.A. the Rugged Man's diet plan was Parkay and butter, damn.

I have been told I look troubled and homeless. I could easily fit right in with the wildlings from game of thrones with the proper attire.

I'm afraid of card games.

I often get random pains in my body. Any part of my body is fair game for them. Usually they last only for maybe twenty seconds or so, but they’re still really annoying.

I sleep with at least four plushies and stuffed animals every night.

I had at least two nights in May 2020 during which I did not sleep at all. And after these nights I did not sleep before sunset. It was so despite I took medication regularly (especially 100 mg of quetiapine about 6 - 7 p.m.).

It was a "success" that during some days in last weeks I spent less than three hours with my laptop. I watched programs about UFOs and "aliens" quite regularly last weeks about the evening despite the fact that I do not believe in extraterrestrial life in Universe (and physical Multiverse, in which I also do not believe).

Some "grey aliens" may appear even "cute" or "sweet" for me, but their images are often (rather) ugly.

I want female friends who I can talk about makeup with but that’s impossible to find where I live