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feet and inches are the superior method of conveying height in casual conversation.

would a wife gradually become annoyed that her husband usually grabs her hand and puts it on his face/lips?

i guess if she truly loves him, she will not find that annoying, even if he does that for hours

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i guess since childhood i never changed.

horses are good people.

Me after taking a hit of weeds lulz

I need to stop, even when I am not using I am obsessed

Ten years ago the Department of Rehab gave me a multiple choice written test. Several pages. The DoR diagnosed me with six out of ten personality disorders

But the psychologist that proctored the test did not even interact with me, except when she collected and distributed the test.

It is just against my natural personality to do so many things

My inherent demeanor just makes it inconvenient and emotionally disturbing to do pretty much anything.

Used to take prozac and Ativan. Made me shake physically and exhausted.

Meds cost $$ and have side effects

Not taking meds has its own problems

There is something wrong with everything

It's like last year you could have chosen Trump or Clinton. You could not have chosen Obama.

You pick the choice with the fewest problems.

There is no perfect or good solution

Ah... Just my own reminiscence of what would've been... I hope you sir won't mind me quoting.

In my case… Not able to afford meds might've sort of saved me from being dependent AND potential financial requirement for me to ever function that might've lasts in a life time.
I imagine what would've been if my household decided that I should take meds back at my worst days... Sure, it'll cut of the 2 years of life sheltering myself to bouncing back earlier than, graduating earlier, getting a job earlier.
Downside is that I'd might've never truly overcome anxiety and depression -- I'd be instead stuck managing and coping with it along with it's potential side effects. I'd be more of an inconvenience to myself and others. One slip of a cold turkey, I won't able to stand up the way I'm actually doing now.

So yesy, how the crap did I know I had about actually 3 main choices? Actually, I didn't knew. I never really know I have options branching many.
One I took was 'Waste two years of my life, graduate and have a job later'. What I do not know is that I'd also actually work on something about myself.
Second would be 'take a short cut, never had to waste time sheltering myself for others, graduate and have a job earlier or same time as peers'. What I don't know is that I may never overcome or even add suffering in a long run.
And the third is 'do nothing -- do not take meds, do not figure yourself, and blame everything.' Everything is rather uncertain then. My fate would've been far worse.


I'm not saying anyone shouldn't take meds from the beginning -- because mine happened to work out well. I'm very sure that others won't likely end up with the same conclusion for several and obvious reasons.

Reading articles about politics lately makes me feel ashamed of being the same species as President Trump.

In particular, articles about how Trump said he wants a Muslim registry.

Trump and the Republicans are trying to get rid of Medi Cal.

And I am on Medi Cal.

So if that happens then ain't got no medical insurance

And Trump tweeted the military transgender ban

But I am just an unemployed public nuisance civilian.

However maybe Trump will come after transgender civilians next

When I went for a job interview as a school crossing guard, one of five questions was what experience have you had with different sexual orientations and Gender and race.

So why does a crossing guard, have to not be racist, sexist or homophobic, while the president of the united States can be racist sexist and homophobic?

The crossing guard has not much power

The president of the united States has a lot more power than a crossing guard



Last night, in my petri dish, I sat on the toilet for over one hour. Tried to take the third bowel movement of the day.

Failure

Ate two servings Grape Nuts cereal

Surprisingly tasty

Kind of dense, heavy.

The nutrition facts state that Grape Nuts contains plenty of nutrients. Iron and such

And then this morning, I wasted eighty minutes on the toilet

And finally successful

In that way



Who cares about me?

I am nobody. I have no rights or emotions.



A couple minutes ago I was eating the chocolate off a kit Kat

It tasted like sugar overload

But I kept eating

Gorging

Emotional overeating

As usual



Wish Obama was president

Oh well whatever

Maybe I should just be grateful Obama was president for eight years




Maybe someone will exterminate me.

Quite frankly I get the feeling that, where I live, nobody"cares" enough about me to exterminate or rape my worthless corpse

But it just takes one precious lil "person". One time.

In Berkeley 2017, a stranger at the bus stop had the nerve to scream "go back to your country! I light yo ass on fire!"

Berkeley California

2017

Trump's "make America great again"

He did not "light yo ass on fire", but anyone could do that at any time. It is just not physically possible to be so vigilant and paranoid to prevent someone from doing so

amped with anxiety nearly through the roof. had to stop taking the blood pressure medication because it was making for feeling like having a body made of lead, and got to the point where naps were becoming mandatory... like, find a bed, or pass out on the floor. knocked out most anxiety though, but started to realize, enough anxiety is healthy to help move and motivate. lost all concern for everything in a matter of days... it felt unethical. the mind appears such a fragile thing.

seems the only option is to look for what might be causing excess anxiety in this diet... hasn’t been this bad until rather recently. though, there are more uncertainties up in the air than ever before too.

dying is an art, as is everything else.

The older I get the more dysfunctional I get

And I was never very functional

Someone else's music hurts my ears

Bathroom hand dryers hurt my ears. So, when practical, I go somewhere without blow dryers. But sometimes that is inconvenient

There are not many things I like to do. And fewer that I am good at

Feel lonely but almost all precious lil "friends" in the past were not worth the cost benefit analysis

They expected me to do whatever they wanted but they were not willing to do what I wanted

And when I did the slightest thing they did not like they made a big deal



What I really want to know about someone is how they respond when I do something they do not like. But there is no way to know at the beginning of the relationship



Hence thus Thusly it follows that I will never have any friends

You know you're bad at maths when you have to stop a conversation to ask which (quite different) amounts of money is bigger.

Still waiting for the rain...

New hollywood undead album coming out this year

Addicted to internet

Some dude on the bus sitting behind me was coughing and did no cover his mouth

He looked pretty dirty

But I was too cowardly and lazy to tell him to cover his mouth

If he refused. Then what, argue?

Idiots are not worth the effort it takes to interact with them