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I am straight up coco for coca puffs,

I've realised that the haters of autism really sound like Angelica from Rugrats, and they say autistics sound childish.

one of the "top ten" electricians is of russian descent. i know this because i have heard his accent. it's perfectly thick and strikes the fine balance between intelligible and exotic.

but even he was seemingly stumped by the electrical problems in my sv21. usually it takes him three or four hours, at most to diagnose and fix an issue, says the armenian.

but he has been at it for nearly six separate days (nonconsecutively, with breaks)

he tells me all the separate components work, ecu, igniter and distributor, but the car won't tun over.

he asks me, once more, to tell him what exactly i did to my car that disabled it and led me to this mess.

i told him the usual....but that evening i suddenly remembered that i had done something else on that fateful midaugust morning.

this is the first time i tell the two of this: i had unscrewed, not disconnected, unscrewed entirely, the housing that comes off of the mass airflow sensor and leads to a set of wires whose other end is connected to, god knows where. the engine's arsecrack.

the thin metal pins are completely mangled no thanks to me. i'll have to drive the 85 miles to santa paula and back to pull a used one out of the junkyard, again.

i see a lightbulb go off above russian dude's head. he CORRECTLY disconnects the MAF wiring, or soem of ti at least, and turns the key

crank

crank

it starts.

it whines horribly and runs like shite, but IT STARTS.

i punish myself for not having told them what did earlier. but truth is, i really did forget.

end my life.

i just want my car back.

That was one ugly football game tonight.

I should be more tired but I keep myself awake pondering my own relevance to my social life.

I honestly have no idea about that, ironically making for more food for thought.

oh!

it's interesting

do i limit the actual amount of food i ingest? hardly. barely. i make efforts, deliberately "starve" myself but i always cancel that out the next time i eat.

do i watch WHAT i eat? sometimes. particularly the red meats.


you?

i'm not as skinny as i used to be (see my recently posted pic) but i'd still have to put in a bit of effort if i want to soften up anything more than my thighs...i'm not very fit like i was aged 17, but my current job might help that

admit i weigh myself whenever i can and was happy to see i still weigh 140

better than 119....

blame the braces.

back then no holed belt would fit me and i had to poke my own holes. then i switched to holeless belts (ones with two semicircular metal loops) and haven't looked back since.

i don't miss having my butt hurt though.

Sorry for laughing yesterday. It looks quite bad when I see it now. I wasn't sober. Hopefully i would have formulated myself differently if I was.

I keep an eye on the amount I eat, not WHAT. I have done in the past. I've had periods when I was focused on being super healthy. Now I feel it's not worth it. I want to enjoy food. If this shortens life, that doesn't worry me the least. In fact it could be a good thing. However if it gives me some kind of lifestyle disease that lowers the quality of it, that would be a bummer.

You certainly look slim in your pictures

What's your current job?

Hmm, in what way did your braces make it hard for you to put on weight?

That kind of a belt might be something for me to look into also. I've made holes between the regular ones, because it's to wide between them.

Yeah I assume you mean the lack of flesh when you are too thin can make it painful to sit. There is not enough soft tissue between the bones in the but, and the chair basically.

Wish that when I was 18, I joined the military

Infantry

Combat engineer

So that I could get sleep deprived

Waken up in the middle of the night to work

The military is subject to a different code of laws

It is illegal to go to work late



Absent without leave

Get smoked, chewed out by drill sergeant

Waste hours cleaning the barracks

Getting only several minutes to shower

Group showers

Navy
Showers

Sharing a showerhead with someone

Shower by the numbers

Get dressed by the numbers

No internet access

The military owns it's members



But I was too cowardly to enlist

Fear of physical injury

Getting exterminated



Rape

Hazing

Infirmary

The crucible

Toilets allegedly have no partitions or doors

In the military they have to work 24 hour shifts

Fire watch

Drill

Rifles

But I was too scared to go

So I feel like I am not morally justified at living

Because I did not serve the united States

Instead I made no sacrifice

All I cared about was myself

And sometimes I did not care about myself

Civilian job working for the military







Department of defense Nerve

Waivers take up to a year to approve

Chaptered out

Clinical depression



But I am just a stupid civilian





Wish I joined the military

Sign up

Recruiter

It probably already looked bad.

I don't understand what you mean?

I probably don't either

He he, let's just leave it at that then.

i probably looked bad

Nobody looks bad with blue hair IMO

god i eat way too much onion.

I am an onion