today and yesterday were scorching hot. temperature.
felt even more exhausted than usual. and that is pretty exhausted.
on the positive side, constipation not too extreme lately.
sometimes it gets worse. sometimes it gets better.
lately things have been "As Good As it Gets".
plenty of things could make my "life" much worse permanently.
someone could rape me.
someone could run me over with a car.
someone could frame me up for a crime
diseases
social rejection
homeless
that's why i try to avoid doing anything too significant.
if it ain't broke, don't fix it
few things could make my "life" better. and that is just a little. temporarily.
while it is physically possible someone could make the mistake of hiring me, dating me, or acting like my precious lil "friend", that is extremely difficult to imagine.
and even if they did, they could still dump or fire me the next day.
few risk, little reward
for someone with no job, no job skills, no $$, no precious lil "friends", life is "As Good As it Gets".
feel guilty for not serving the country in the military.
but hey whatever