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I am so emotional.

i will probably never settle down and make relationships that last longer than a few years

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I think that COVID-19 pandemics is a large tragedy for entire humankind.

My mentality thinks that the area in which I have the largest problems is religion, way of life. My mentality hates suffering, especially larger suffering. Annihilation of conscious being is (would be) something really ugly IMO.

My mentality disagrees with religions based on medieval or ancient scriptures. It "produces" something like religious-ontological "derealization" against them which is a bizarre thing.

I have no "internal desire" to be a monk or a priest. I have problems with quite basic functioning in life, such as changing clothes or getting a shower.

I'm always torn between loving both super cute and "happy" things and then dark and "edgier" things and wanting to dress in clothes of both of those styles and I worry a lot about how I appear to other people.

I like secrets and secrecy.

Not because of insecurity. Not because of the idea that if someone knows, it'll be used against me. Not because of shame or some crap.

It's simply because I really, really hate nosy people. I end up fancying the concepts of privacy.

I prefer the choice of disclosure, the idea of consent to share. I'd likely tell if and if someone is at least being on front about it and just asked me.
Than someone suddenly knowing what I did, felt, thought, had, etc... any of it, behind my back.

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Lockdown and the pandemic haven't affected me at all since this is my 'normal' anyway.

I have some 20 year old tshirts that are still nice.

I have weakness for meowing and purring animals. They are lovable. Especially physically. I do not look sexually at them. They have nice muzzles (a moment ago there was the word "mice" instead of "nice" in that sentence).

Meowers are deadly for mice. And the mice are also nice. But not as nice as ones who hunt the mice.

Head of an animal of genus Felis is something which looks nice

I do indeed sometimes forgot the things I've said and done...
Realizing that I already said or did that.

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I don't know what it was like to get sick too often.

I don't know what it was like to be hospitalized and have several trips to the hospital.

I don't know what it was like to have regular checkups, have regular regimens and have to take meds regularly in long term basis.

I don't know what it was like to be surrounded by doctors and carers.

I don't know what it was like to constantly move in places because I was vulnerable.


I don't know what vulnerable is supposed to look like. I know I'm in some way, yet I don't act or feel like one. I just can't afford it.

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I love baking.

I have brown hair but I have subtle blonde patch on my left eyebrow that I'm embarrassed of. I also have a streak of blonde on the side of my head, which is why I shave my head so it's not as noticeable.

I write 2,000 words every single day.

I am terrible regarding my need to spend money in a compulsive way.