I wonder about something and I could write it down because it's usually easier but I don't want everybody to read that. I'd rather tell you. I just don't know how to break the wall without knowing that, go from watching to talking, close the distance. I also wonder if you wonder about that.
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"Ever since I was a child, I’ve never allowed myself to get too close to people. I’ve avoided emotional attachment. Perhaps I’ve been so afraid of death and dying that any connection just seemed like a bad thing, something that wouldn’t last." Dana Scully - Christmas Carol.